evil's blog: "Finding Peace"

I do not think that peace was meant for me to find
I do not believe them when they tell me that its all in my mind
No one ever asked me if I thought they were kind
Nothing really seems to matter when our worlds gone blind

So hard have I tried to forget all of my sickened past
Everything I try to forget seems to be the the only thing that last
Hit so hard by each and every stone that's ever been cast
Every time I pick myself up only so I can fall down way too fast

So much envy I hide within the things that I fear
Destroying my faith as I count each and every last tear
Searching for answers that I swear I can hear
Redemption is earned from my soul that was never here

My grace has been stolen from the father of light
My memories have been tainted when I thought I was right
Eternal is infinite of this cold and this endless night
Deceived by the decisions of cowards that hid in the fight

Behold a false heaven that I built from my hell
No God and no Satan or even the option of a soul to sell
Good intentions have not served me so well
I spent all of my life ignoring warnings of my funeral bell

Ruled by the fates that were written by time
I could never be the one who would turn on you and hide
Life of betrayal I would never make mine
Trickery seems to be the only truth that I truly abide
Life is a perfection of truth before it is ruined by lies
Lies hold the peace that we all think we must find

-Evil-