Phoenix's blog: "Feelings!"

Its Amazing... How one person can change your life How a smile from you can erase everything bad How life seems less scary when your holding my hand. Its Phenomenal... How fate brings two strangers together How I survived before I knew you How, Whenever I'm with you its like a great new adventure. Its Beautiful... How love can be so unconditional How learning about you is like reading my favorite story. And Im so thankful... That Im able to know this Amazing Phenomenal Beautiful person and because... I Love You!

Feelings are such a bitch to have! Why do we love when we know we cant be loved in return? Why do we fall so hard and fast we dont know whats happening? Why do we see more into things than whats really there? All these things we do, and we only hurt ourselves in the end! When I told you that I loved you, I meant just that! Hate me if you want to, but I cant help the way I feel! But I hope that you will still be my friend when I have had the time to heal!

(VERSION I WROTE:)) A ♥ is like clay, after is sits too long,it will harden. Then one day that special person comes along and you cant let them in for the fear it will shatter like glass. Eventually you have lost that love forever because you wouldnt let them in. ((VERSION I HAD HELP WRITING: Thanks sweetie!)) A ♥ is like clay, after is sits too long,it will harden.Then one day that special person comes along,with a special love that will pour from their ♥,slowly softening the brittle clay back to its softened state & it is then molded into a love of the two ♥ combined!

Sometimes we hold our feelings back, its just one of those things thats hard to hack! When I see you every day, I cant believe these things are so hard to say! The things that we say just barely make sense, and still things between us are very tense! If I could say just one little thing to you, it would be how much your friendship means, and to you I will forever be true! As I sit and long for your touch, I know that this is all we have which will never be much! Its amazing how quickly our feelings grow, I want to be with you more than you will ever know! For now I know I must let this all go, Just all of this I need you to know!

How can you ache and crave for someones touch, when you have never felt it? I do this for yours, though, and the yearning grows more each day. I have never wanted anything in my life, as much as I want you. When you whisper such sweet love, In my ear when we talk. You make me melt into a puddle, of complete helplessness. You have become my every waking thought, And my every dream at night. I breath in so hard, Trying to catch my breath when we cant talk. I close my eyes so tight, Hoping when I open them you will be there. But I know I have to wait, Until the time is right. It seems so far away, That I think I am loosing my mind. I want to breathe in your sent, and keep it with me all day long. I want to taste your love for me, By kissing your sweet lips. I want to feel your body next to mine, So when you leave for a while I can hold on. I just want you to know, That I really do love you. When the day comes and we are together, You will always know and feel this. I will always hug, kiss and love you, Every moment of the day and night. ... You will never have another touch unfelt.

Sun wakes me in the morning, as I awake with a smile on my face. I know that today not only do I meet my friend, but possibly my soul mate and life long companion. Minute after minute time goes by, and it finally dawns on me that you are very close by. As the butterflies run races within my stomach, I prepare myself to look into your eyes. After all the late night conversations, nothing could prepare me for the moments that lie ahead of me. The drive was wonderful and my head was full of thoughts. I had no clue what to expect from you. As we pulled in and our eyes met, I could not restrain myself from wrapping my arms around you. It was a feeling like no other, a feeling that I would never soon forget. AS we slowly walked through the park, and the kids run to play, I cant help but think about how wonderful it is to have you here with me. As you walk up behind me, my body just relaxes at the wonderful sensation of your touch. I never want you to let go. I want to feel your touch forever. As the time slowly passes, I know that the time has come that we must say good-bye. I promise its not forever, only for a short time. Sometime soon I promise to be in your arms again. I love you baby and I cant wait for more "Moments Like These"!
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Your smile to me is like none other. Your touch is like nothing I have ever felt. To look into your eyes is like looking into heaven. Seems like every time I talk to you I fall in love all over again. I sometimes question the theory of fate or even love at first sight. I now know that those questions have been answered. The day I met you, I was immediately in love with you and from then on I knew that it was fate that had brought us together and it was our destiny to be one. Some people call me crazy, some even say that I am nieve, but no one can ever tell me what my heart knows it feels for you. The wonderful, loving caring father and the passionate lover and friend that you are is the person I fell in love with and will love until my last breath. I can only hope that as each day passes, our love stays true until our very last days on this Earth shall end!
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Come join us as we celebrate the fu-union of DJ Bones & Phoenix on Wednesday, January 15, 2008, @ 9:30 pm central time in Unholy Confessions Lounge. They will be joined in this fu-union by none other than Lickety Split.

For some reason, as much as I want to let go, I CANT!I love you so much it hurts and every thought I have through out the day has you in it! There is NOTHING I can do to get my mind off you and my feelings I have for you! I dont know what to do! I am so lost and confused! For once in my life, I need someone else to do the thinking for me and tell me what to do. I love you and want you in my life, but I know I can never have you. Should I just let it all go, and continue to love you in my heart, or should we keep this thing we have and both continue to hurt! I love you baby with all my heart and can only hope and pray that you feel the same way and we can help each other through this! I am and will be, forever yours!

Why do I have to love you? Why do I even have to care? I cant stop thinking about you, even though I know that I should. Every time I close my eyes, its only your face that I see. I cant help but love you, and I cant help but miss you when you arent here. Things were never supposed to be like this, we were only supposed to be friends. My life seems to be collapsing around me, the deeper in love I fall. I know that this is something that I really dont want to do, but I think its best. I close my eyes as I feel the tears start to fall. In the softest most gentle voice I have, I slowly whisper.......... Good-Bye! I love you more than you will ever know, and I cant thank you enough for the love you have shown me! I will never forget nor will I ever stop loving you. I am and will forever be YOURS!!