JUST SO YOU ALL KNOW, I WROTE THIS A FEW DAYS AFTER I BROKE IT OFF WITH MY EX......
How do you tell the one you love you would do anything for them, even move back to be with them? How do you fix what you have done wrong? How can you change your life for one person when you never get it in return?
Will things ever be different? Will you ever love again? When you find what God wants you to have in life, why do I always find a way to mess mine up?
When love comes back around, I seem to do everything I can to turn and run. Is it commitment I'm scared of? Being hurt? Truely being loved and having happiness? Why does love scare me so much? The last few guys I have been with abused me in some form, and I stuck around. But why? Is it my comfort zone? Do I really think I cant do better then that? I got lied to and still loved them. But it all seemed to be my fault.
I know I'm not perfect, but when everyone wants me to make them happy regardless on if I am happy, why do I always seem to mess it all up one way or another?
At least I have lived my life on truths and and not based on lies from everyone else. Screw those that cant get over the past!!! People make mistakes and live and learn from them all. If you can't handle that, there's the door. Dont let it hit you on the way out.
How do you tell someone you like you want to see where things go? Or how do you even tell them that you like them? What happens when you leave, do things change that much for you both? Do you just stop talking? Or do you keep talking and see where things go for you both?
If you have two people that like eachother and they both want to see where things go. Why does someone have to try and make things miserbale for you both? How do you handle that? What do you say? What should you do? How should you feel?
How is it you cant see yoruself being with anyone else, but you still manage to mess things up? The one person you truely love and want to spend the rest of your life with, you cant.
They dont talk to you, they talk bout you, they lie to you, and when they talk to other people they only give HALF the story. But when you try and make the effort you still get the short end of the stick, and cant say anything. Am I not supposed to hurt? Can I not have made mistakes in my life? Can I not hurt for what I have done? Why is it when someone makes an effort, no one cares?
Everyone makes mistakes, but why when you are trying to piece back the puzzle and you ask for help, no one thinks that you are trying? And they dont help, but expect you to help when they need it. They talk about everyone and then turn their backs and pretend nothing happend. Why not just tell someone this is how you feel? Scared to? You say people keep using you for things, but why do you keep going back?
You wanna tell people that I lie so much, but when questioned about it, you cant say anything. Cant prove what I "said."
No one but you can make mistakes in life, isnt that how you see it?
You need me there when you need to talk, but when I needed you there for me, where were you? Friends were always more important. Its always a convenience things with you. Never will change either. You want and expect me to drop everything for you when you need me, but you dont want to do the same in return...what's up with that?
You cant expect someone to change for you, when you dont give in return.
How does someone fix things? Show and prove things? When the chance isnt being given?
