Fear. Such a small word with a incredibly huge stigma attached. Fear can debilitate one to the point of self destruction, or it can also be a beings greatest motivator. I mean without fear, where would we be? We could be locked away inside ourselves, afraid to try, that is what fear is. But those who chose to overcome this feeling, came through enormous battles and achieved more than what they ever dreamed.
Same here. If I held bound to my fears, I could honestly say my life would be very boring. I would of never gone to New Orleans and I most certainly would of died in Katrina. But my fear is what got me through, yes fear is what got me to wade through the nasty waters to find my salvation. Fear of death. I do not fear death, not in the least not when it's time. But in my world, it's not time yet. I have so much left to do, many more fears to overcome and my biggest one yet. Relinquishing control is a hard one, but it is one I am ready to make. Being the self sufficient female I am, I have always had myself to depend on and allowing someone else to take those things I am so used to doing, and see to my care is difficult, but necessary.
See in this what I am so afraid of is failure. Feeling as if I am disappointing someone else and will once again be kicked out, or left in the dust when someone better comes along. I know I am good, a loving, kind person, but I know by far I am not the best. In this I face my greatest fear. The fear of being alone. The fear of being one of those elderly ladies with a zillion cats. Yes, I make jokes, but this is what stops me from trying. In service I can be who I am, and in that I can let go of those fears and let someone else hold the reins...But that still scares me to death. So, in all it is a double edged blade. An inner battle that knocked me for a thousand loops every time I think about it.
Fear, has me in its grip, But in the end I will overcome. I will not let fear stop me from missing out on something wonderful and amazing. Fear will not make me live my life with the "what ifs?" Fear will not lock me away in a box, too scared to breathe.
See many do use fear as a defensive mechanism to failure. Instead of trying they will yield to their fears and become stagnant in life. Never trying to reach for the stars, never trying to move past where they are now. Animals use fear to intimidate, much like humans who use it to keep others at bay, either physically or emotionally.
The most common fear, is death as it stops most from taking risks and finding things that may be daring, but thrilling out of this fear. But to me, the biggest fear is living. In this you are being alive, living life and finding those means to express life. Death in itself is a rest, So why fear rest? Fear life, its the bigger threat..
So look fear in the face, you gain courage and confidencr. be strong, grow, Take your fears and place them on the ground and meet them, challenge yourself. In the end, the only fear you have is yourself. You are the fear which stops you. So push on, fear is nothing but the power you give it. Overcoming one fear will begin a chain reaction. Once you let your light of no fear shine, others will gravitate to it and wish to overcome their own, so go ahead shine on. Once a fear is understood, then it cannot be feared anymore. For fear is in the unknown.
