What’s going on in this life of mine?
What’s going on deep within?
I’m angry, confused, nervous & scared,
Of this tornado in my mind…
Outside, everything confuses me…
I’m frustrated, scared, and everything is so unclear!
My soul pulling in every direction, I cry…
I feel unsafe in my surroundings, and within myself.
Should I reveal myself… let someone in…?
Is it safe to be so open with my ragged soul?
Can I truly afford not to?
Whiplash from the spoken mind…
Guilt for that which is not…
Where is the compromise?
How do people deal?
I’ve found something so precious in my life…
It frightens me…
Knowing that I push away so often
From that which I hold dear!
A soul that longs for acceptance,
Both from others and within…
So frightened, confused, and shy.
My efforts being thwarted by my own self!
I have no oasis…
No certainty, no confidence…
I fear I have nothing…
Nothing within to develop, to make better…
I am lost… lost in love…lost in myself!
written 10/6/97, revised 3/27/04
