This is something I've grown accustomed to keeping to myself. I had this friend that keeps reminding me that keeping my feelings bottled is a bad thing. Although I know I can talk to several people about things. I fear misinterpretation in some form or another.
Let me start by saying, love is a confusing bitch. There are so many ways for it ot be misread and there are so many kinds of love.
There is someone my heart aches for that I have kept ot myself I have expressed it subtly to her as well as my best friend. This is not a person on the LC she is a dear friend that has be come engaged to my best friend.
The three of us were close when they hooked up and I don't hate him for being with her; or her for choosing him - I'm not clear on how to discribe the love for them, it isn't lust, and it's more than friendship and different than one would have for family.
These are friends that in some ways I have gone through hell for or with.
I so want to be around them again...
I fear and loath my feelings because they get me to do semi stupid to uterly stupid shit
