So I am moving to Richmond once my lease is up in Jan. I need to know if it is truely not ment to be. My Son is in Richmond and I need to live closer to him. I love him. I miss him. I just don't want a large 'what if' hanging over me got the rest of my life. I want to know once and for all. And I am not going to be able to know for 100% certianinty that it is not ment to be unless I talk to Candi and try and work things out. I know we are good together. Atleast we were at one point and I need to find out why/how we got to the point of 5 months ago. I need to know if it is something Candi and I can work through or if it is something that we can't. But I can not find that out if I don't at least try. I am not worried about not having a wife when I move back if we are not able to work things out. And Candi and I have discused this that the main reason I am moving back to Richmond is to be closer to my son. He is my world.
Candi and I have a lot to talk about it and our Marriage will not fix itself. I know it will take some work and I am willing to put forth that work if it can make me as happy as I was Sunday night when I was holding her in my arms. I am thinking this is the right move. A necessary move. For the first time in a couple months I was truely happy just laying there holding my wife in my arms. I was not sure until that moment how much I truely missed her. And what she has done for and put up with from me. She is the best thing that ever happened to me, besides my son. Candi brought me back to Columbus on Sunday after visiting my son for the weekend. We talked for a solid 4-5 hours. It is the most we have talked probably in 7-8 months. We have cleared some air but we need to work some more. Like I said this is not going to happen over night. But I think this(this being my marriage) is going to work.
I will be moving to Richmond by the end of Jan. I need to find employment and housing in Richmond or around by then. I am looking. I know I have been flip flop on this issue so many times in the past few months. But after really sitting down and talking to my wife on Sunday I have once and for all made up my mind that I need to atleast try once. So in conclusion I must say I love my Son(more then anything) I love my wife and I love my life...I am just so damn tired right now.
