Ive been drinking alot so bear with me (im just getting home)... there are times in my life when i wished i could go back and relive something... well tonight was one of them.... the day started out great met up with my younger sis we went to a craft show went out to lunch woohoo had a great time came home played final fantasy 12 and Mortal Kombat Armeggedon.... than the phone call..ughhh my friend lisa (not the one on here) called to ask what my plans were tonight and well since i had the day off and eric wanted to stay home and study after work , i had made no plans she said great im coming to get you and we are going out. yay(at the time) i wasnt sure i wanted to go i had this certain vibe telling me no but after talking to kim who went out and told me to go out and not mope around the house i said yes mom and went and got ready , felt really good about myself...and we were off.... went to her place to meet up with some other friends her boy bill and another couple.. well i felt like a fifth wheel LOL until the door bell rang and i went into the bathroom. when i came out i heard the voice than i saw the face and i think i lost all blood in my body .. the man i dispised for 14 years was standing in the living room. It was funny when lisa introduced us. Tony looked at me and said you have the prettiest eyes and that smile you look like a familiar face ive been dying to see. I said really (giving the rock look) and boy did he look dumb when he realized i was that face.. (on a side note the last time i saw this man i was over 400 pounds) . he said you look great. I said thanks (rolling eyes) he said i wish i could get you back. I said not a day in HELL.. trying to make me look stupid infront of my friends he said what did i do that was so bad???? I said hmmm dating me for 4 years and screwing my so called best friend for 3 of them till she got pregnant, and then on our 4 year anniversary when i found out she was pregnant you denying it and hitting me in the face. hmm by the way how the arm i broke and well i dont think i kicked you hard enough in the balls cause i heard from your sister you had 2 more kids after that. than he had the nerve to say can we forget about the past and go out tonight since your single and hmm my wife ( ex best friend) is at home with the kids. I laughed Hard... I said no way in hell Im seeing someone im happy and No way in fucking hell would i go anywhere with you even if my life depended on it well after all that came out i walked into the bedroom lisa came in and said i didnt know he was coming over to drop off stuff for bill, i laughed and said you didnt know that he was the one i dated either and we cracked up than she said ill make him leave, well after i straightened myself up and Jenny called and i vented (thank you Jenny) i went back out there and he was gone... i felt akward and i wanted to go home but bill wanted me to go out and have fun so i did and we drank and i danced.. bill and lisa taking me home was funny bill couldnt believe i never had sex with tony through out the 4 years we dated i said i told tony in the beginning that i didnt want to be pregnant while in high school and tony didnt believe in condoms so hmmm no sex there and alot of you guys are thinking no wonder he cheated. i do feel stupid about all of this because i did see signs but i was too gullable and believed them both. and yeah after 14 years you think I should be over it . I cant. not with him, i wasnt brought up to let a guy lie to me and hit me in the face and think i can forget.. no way when i saw him my right side of my face was burning ( oddly that was the side he hit me). Funny thing is i havent talked to Shelly (the ex best friend) since the day she came up to my room while i had a curling iron in my hand telling me who the father was and me just looking at here in my mirror saying get the fuck out before i hurt you with this hot curling iron and i havent spoken to her since.. i cant forgive her maybe its because she knew how i felt about tony and she never once tried to appologize... hmmm well guys its 6 am and i need to get my butt to bed i have to work today at 5 ughh ill be dragging some butt tonight but i feel wide awake i think ill be playing some video games LOL im listening to ugly kid joe "i hate everytihng about you" i know im addicted to music and video games LOL
