im in a predicament
this gy likes me
but i dont like him bak
and im like ew
but i did kinda make out with him this one time
but it suckd
cuz...well i wont say y
anyways i didnt do it cuz i like him
i just wanted to make out with someone
hey i was bored
(i kno im a bitch)
so
i should tell him not to like me like he does
cuz ima bitch
i admit that
im a heartbreaker
and i make boiz cry
i hav
and i will
again
not intentionally
cuz
im not that cruel...
i think
but its fun
honestly
fun to play with guys emotions
but wen they cry its just too much
too much to handle
i cant handle it
they cant handle me
noone can handle me
i cant handle myself
im too wild
i need to slow down
bak up off guys for a while
its nvr gonna happn
but hey
i can dream
and set goals
but w/e
tryin to get ovr past acquaintances
yes
thats all they...or he...were...or was
just an acquaintance(s)
im confusin huh
well i can be
cuz im confuzd myself
i think i like this guy at my skool
but hes just a really good frend
hes my husband too
and im his wife
but he doesnt like me like that
cuz noone evr really does
they mite say they do
but thats cuz they wanna make out
or they just like me for my body
and i dont want that
well at least
i dont want it all the time
from evry guy
cuz i hav too many
im not bragging
i cant brag about that
cuz in the long run it sux
it sux badly
wen u wanna be with all of em at the same time
but then one leaves and u realize that he was the only one that u evr wanted
only him
only one
then he moves on
b4 ur willing to
and u cry
and shut out the world
cuz u can
cuz u feel like it
dude
im talkin bout him again
shutup
ok
...
ok thats it
no more feelings or emotions
or at least evn less emotions
cuz i only felt one
love
now i feel many
pain
hatred
jealousy
sadness
and of course
i still feel love
which sux
so no more of any of that
ima be emo
without bein emotional
cuz ther arnt emotions to show
but im still emo ina way
it makes sense
think about it
...
u done??
ok
well this is the new me
no emotions at all
but still very emo(tional) at the same time
it so makes sense
it really does
it makes sense to me
cuz i need it to make sense
to make me feel bettr
and less guilty
for hurtin him
and others
all the time
gawd im sucha bitch
