why is it that i feel all alone. i dont understand. am i that bad that all my friends bail on me until they need something. i know i work alot but i still try to make time. soemtimes i just wana go sit in a corner and cry.wats worse is i have someone wonderful in my life and yet i cant seem to keep the loneliness away. maybe its the distance between us but i dono. i dono whats so bad about me that even my family dont wana see me alot of the time. am i seriously that bad.maybe im just goin insane. i wish someone would rescuse me from this hell. he knows who he is too. whats worse is i asked my friends that if i moved away if they would come see me and they told me no. i would drop anything at the tip of a hat to help them or even road trip to see them but they wouldnt even take the time to see me. maybe im not that important to anymore?
