[EDIT] This WAS family only. It's not anymore. I'm NOT going to be ranting in here anymore. It's going to be for fun stuff, so if you read this or the previous post, don't take it personally - it most probably wasn't about you...
If you're going to be judgemental, stop here. Don't read any further. I don't need someone taking what I say here and twisting it, or using it against me like I've had done with some of the other things I've posted about. If you do take offense, or hold this against me, don't say I didn't warn you (like that's gonna fucking matter anyway)
To begin with, I posted something right before Christmas, and it seems that certain people have avoided me like the fucking plague ever since. I know most people don't agree with the idea of making "real friends" on the internet, but it's what I've done since the damned internet started, and I'm not going to stop because some other people can't be themselves, and lie about everything to make people like them and accept them. There are a few people on here that I was under the assumption of friendship with... sadly this has proven untrue, and as sad as it makes me, I've gotta stop lying to myself about it and accept that they're just phony. I can't have fake people in my life anymore. It's draining, and stressful, and I have enough to deal with. I've been in a situation for a while now, and it's not something I choose to share on here, so I'm just going to say that the people that disappeared after my posts in my "Drama" blog, good riddance. You won't be getting smiles from me, or *slurpz* from me, anymore. I can't surround myself with phony people, or people that just use you for what they want, then drop you when they're not getting that anymore. Funny part is, most of the people I'm talking about, won't even read this. I'd be surprised if more than 3 or 4 people actually do. I've got some serious shit I'm dealing with now, and it's way beyond anything I've blogged about in the past. I can't be wasting my time trying to be friendly with people that aren't real anymore. People that only talk to me when I'm exactly what they need, rather than everything I really am. Fuck that. I'm sick of having to fake a smile when I'm on the verge of tears. I'm sick of having to tiptoe around people, in fear of them taking me off their friends' list, or coming down on me for not being perfect. I've watched it happen too many times, to other people and to myself, and I have too many real things in my life to worry about people I'll never even get to meet, let alone that care about ME, and not their precious reputation on fubar.
If anyone takes offense to this, you just might be the people I'm talking about... so think about it (not that any of these people will even read this, as I said before)
Outside the internet, I've always been a "loner" type of person, and have made many bad choices as to friends and acquaintances... I've been a bad judge of character too many times, and when I get "that feeling", I should just drop the person and go on... On the internet, it's easy to see a persons' real intentions - just mention you've got a problem, and they scatter like roaches to a light bulb. Doesn't make it any easier, coming to that conclusion though. Fubar especially... the attention I get on here is so damned superficial sometimes, it's sickening. If I had to count the people that have cared enough to prove to me that they are even halfway real, I'd be done before I reached my second hand. Some people have gone that extra distance to show they're at least sympathetic, and I thank you for that. You know who you are.
Actually, I don't even know if I should post this, now that I've gotten this far writing it. It's actually the second time - deleted it all and started over once already, and I tend to do that quite often when I'm blogging, because most people can't deal with my wandering mind. Gotta love ADD. It's entertaining, at the very least.
I'm gonna end this one here, because I've already gone off topic a few times. I don't need more people to doubt me, or question my integrity, because they can't follow my train of thought... Yeah, some people are that petty. Sad.
Laterz. :/
