Ok for those who do not know me and there aren't too many, I began here as Sultry1957, went thru a name change to Sexy Sultry and then to DJ black pearl and now DJ ice queen. I must say this last name fits me rather well. I am in the midst of a divorce and feel like ice. I place no blame on the break up. We are both responsible for it. Then stupid me thinking that the kids are old enuf to understand what is going on, I am thrown for a loop. I was a good Mom and raised my kids to respect others. Not to judge and always hear both sides to any story. Alas all I thought I had achieved was in vain, my girls, 27, 25 and 23 blame me wholely for the break up. I felt I had to leave the area or be stalked. I knew staying would mean no rest and no time to heal from the situation. I moved 1200 miles away. Now, because I emailed and asked how everyone was I am rejected and told I didn't care enuf to stay around and frankly it is none of my business how anyone is doing. I am so tired of caring, it hurts to damn much. I am afraid to call any of them. Is this normal? Will they forgive me? Sorry, I had to get this off my mind. Maybe now I can breath for a little while. It sucks to love!
