It was about 5 years now that it happened. I can remember almost everything but what lead to the event.
I must of came to the breaking point in my life as ever time before I called for help of went to the hospital for help myself. Plus a few of the other times I didnt call for help. I just woke up the next day feeling great no affect of the pills.Until one night!!! I went out to go do something to do somethings for fun. But I didnt make it that far doing anything fun that is.
I found my self in the hospital parking lot walking towards the ER. Dont even know how I got there or why I was even there. Next thing I'm on the ground not able to move. People come running and screaming for help from the ER.
Well that point on was a blur. I was in and out of it. Until getting in the ER. Then it all happened. My heart stopped. It is a scary thing to hear and see everything going on. But not being able to do anything about it. I heard everything and the one thing that scared me the most was a statement that was told to my parents.
They told my mother and father that, I was very lucky that they brought me back to life. Because the normally do not get the heart started after it stops electrically like mine did. Then to make it even more scary than it allready was. They said if I had been thirty seconds later. They would not of been able to do anything. That was a big wake up call for me.
Now I try to keep my slef if check all the time. If I start to think negtive. I ask for help or go get help. Not to say that is 100% full proff as I black out with the situation that happened. But I hope to catch it before it gets there again. That is where my next post will help any one else that is there. As there is a lot of help out there. So if you feel depressed of like your going to do something to hurt yourself get help. Call a friend, 911 or what ever.
