evil's blog: "Destiny"

Through all the trials of life 

And all the struggle and strife

I cannot help but to help this gloom

And I cannot save you from your fucking doom

Life is a lesson learned and not taught

For all the feelings I hold on the inside

And all the curses that lead to suicide

What about the past or future

What about the path to make things better

Is this really me or the reasoning behind what’s lost?

As the blood under my skin burns and turns black

Time seems to break me down to the past

Doomsday is a state of mind that I cannot control

Faith is just another reason that love can be Sold

All this time I survived and really thought I fought

Can my undying love really ever last forever

And can my soul ever really accept the answer

Before me everything I love has died

Can anyone even see that I have tried

What about my own haunted thoughts

Nobody has ever really cared

And everyone seems a little scared

Sure my destiny is supposed to have a time and place

But it sure as hell aint something to embrace

I am defeated and I cannot take this very long

So my answers will never have questions

My questions will never be answered

I am nothing but alone and scarred

Razors through veins? Has its gone too far

Look at me with your ice cold stares and you know

Time has taken everything I ever loved

What is left besides emptiness too show

Rushing to the end because I am fucking done

Not having a destiny is the destiny that I am supposed to love and embrace

I am standing on the edge knowing if I jump I will not leave a god damn trace

What do you think about me now

I don’t know what or how

Some kind of god I am supposed to understand

The only thing I understand is I am no man

I love you but I hate myself

I know I put me in this spell

I know your pain but do you really know mine

I’ll be ready to die and tell you I am fine

I love the world and everything that’s not me

And my destiny has no say in what’s to be

Fuck you

Fuck you

And fuck you too

Evil Dave