they found that man guilty of all he did the rape kidnapping and murder of that little kid he'll be sentenced sometime next week i watch and remember try not to freak her dads anger her moms tears of woe in Florida to the chair he may yet go its to late to save her shes been gone awhile just news shot photos left a lost smile the the lawyers will plead compassion and mercy i wonder if he gave any did she see i watch the case my girls held close the 5/6 year old a pale ghost of to bed they go in safety while i spend a moment with a memory they caught that one i hear me say to bad they weren't there on our day my shadow nods her little head yes but yours are safe tucked up in bed i weep for her loss and she for mine two separate people caught in time let me go please the guilt the nightmares too it wasn't your fault what could you do i am here i know you will not forget but Michele the woman should not regret my hands and heart shake as she i draw to one her eyes dark and light shadows and fun remember me before that day i know you can kickball playing tag the ice cream man i nod slowly forcing myself to see the girl before all the tragedy a weird sensation a sense of fear a childlike whisper i can barely hear i am you as you are me thank you for letting go we can both now try be free
i wrote this a year ago hoping to be there not here still waiting for dawn more things i am rembering this week hard things the barriers the hell door grows weak hope all the new pain is worth it wish i could sleep by darknesses shadow......
