Cherrytapcom So Easy A Hawaiian Can Do It's blog: "Day In The Life Of A Pine-Apple"

Its never worth it in the end loving someone how doesnt love you. Protect yourself from the pain and suffering. Protect your self. Dont not be consumed. Consumed by the jealousy. The jealousy of not having her love.

I wandered right into your trap of deception. Consumed by false hopes, and dreams. Ive woken up now. I know where i stand. I know what is and isnt important anymore. Dont even try to say anything cause it isnt going to do you no good. You had your chance to prove yourself. Making up excuses and trying to justify the way you treat those who care about you with lies. Not no more. Im no longer your puppet.

This vacation has shed alot of light on my life. Helped me define what is real and what isnt. And alot of the things i hoped were real arent. And alot of other things have become more real to me than they were before. This fantasy we call cyber space, the internet, online, whatever isnt real. You cant even say the people you meet on here are real. Ive done it before and i may do it again. end the fantasy.

well the trip up here took a little longer than expected. What was suppose to be an easy trip got a little slow and hectic when we reached the San Fransico area, Rain lots and lots of rain. As we got up to the California Oregon border the temparture dropped from around 41 to the low 20s. Ice from the beginning of the Sisquo Foothills on. My father not being use to the snow meant i had to put on the chains. Tighten them and then drive. After we got out of it and finally made it to my grandparents and hung out with them at their new house i came to one conclusion about life. I can look at my mother and father and my grand parents and my cousin who just recently got married and see that there isnt a happiness like that of a couple in love. The kind of love that can make you stay together for so long through thick and thin. Seeing that in others really makes you want it for yourself. Then you begin to wonder why you arent married? Why arent you that happy? Will you ever be? Where is my future wife? The future Mrs.Coburn. The woman whom i can give my life to. The woman who can be with me and truly be happy. Is she out there? -Lee

Well i'm outta here. Talk to yall again in two weeks.

Not too long ago i confessed losing all faith what so ever. Well i was wrong. The dictionary defines faith as the belief in that which you can not see but know will come to terms. Two people very close to me have caused me to re-think what i said. I pray everyday now for their well being. That the two of them find peace and happiness in their lives. I pray my ancestors watch over them as if they were me. Because they are a part of me. I pray that god no matter by what name he is called, shelters you two from the evils in this world and protects you with all his power. No one in this world deserves peace and happiness more. To Pulelehua and keiki ho'ohaehae pea, (butterfly) (baby bear) -Lee

Well i doubt ill get to talk to all of you much in the next couple weeks. some of you i really enjoy talking to others i love talking to. Ill be working up until i leave to go see family up north. sad i wont get to hear from yall in two weeks. funny part is most of yall havent heard from me much in the last two weeks anyways.

Funny how the trade offs in life work isnt it. work all day at a good paying job so that you can provide for those you love. but working all the time forces you to lose touch with everyone with the exception of those you work with. i dont know im turning into a vegetable.

haha sometimes when your nice to people or polite. Its nice to get it in return in case you did not know. haha whatever. it just aint worth it no more trying to be a nice guy to all yall. cause quite frankley who the fuck do you think you are? i can be an asshole just as quickly and easily as yall can. Dont believe me? come find out fuckers. Ill show you a side of me you aint never seen before.

Got all this work dropped on me just cause im going on Vacation. So much so ive lost my appetite and have to give up my weekend just to get it all done. Its pretty sad working all day to have money to have fun and when you get home all you want to do is take a nice long hot shower and go to bed. Vicious cycle. Why cant i just win the lottery. That would be nice.