I am a strong advocate of peace, I know, I know, this is a strange place to be someone like that. I've been a Goddess child for about six years and I'm PROUD OF IT!!! My personality is, well, chaotic... Around some people I'm peppy and hyper, around others, fearless, and around a select few, quiet. I'm also probably the most indecisive person you'll ever meet...I spend most of my time listening to loud music, doodling on stuff that I shouldn't, and bellydancing. oh, and for some odd reason, I can randomly write pages of poetry...who would have thought.... Ich weiche in die See und alles zurck, die ich linke Seite dieses schwarze Herz ist... YAY for random german...Seriously though, before any comments about my apperance are made: To me Gothic is not just a look, or a feeling of sadness and depression all the time which it seems most people associate it with. Nor do I believe it has to be associated with a particular religion. Some would say Satanism is common among people that call themselves Gothic and sometimes it is, but a religion is not needed in order to have an interest in this topic. I don't see "Gothic/Goth" as fitting an exact good, or evil scenario as far as it's intent. The person places the association with it, or makes it look bad or good themselves, in how they carry themselves within this subculture world. I myself don't feel unhappy in what I would consider my "Gothic" thoughts or feelings. To me Gothic is history, art, literature, movies, or just the thoughts in my head, of something "dark" I feel is beautiful, yet most would find to be completely the opposite. A warm, cloudy, perhaps rainy summer day. The sun is setting, the clouds filled with moisture seem to grow thin and a yellow glow from the setting sun seeps through giving it the perfect gloomy, yet beautiful effect. Perhaps a dark moonlit night, the stars shining as I sit alone listening to dark poetic music, can sometimes bring along lustful, erotic thoughts and fantasies that are pleasing to my mind. Don't get me wrong, I love my nice kayaking weather, but I can also see beauty within certain types of darkness. Yes, you can express being who you are by what you wear, but very little of this has to do with the threads we have hanging off us, it's more so about being an individual, more opened than a robotic mainstream that condemns so much, or a society that sees someone with true individuality as a freak. One thing is for sure though, and that is to sit and criticize others for being a "poser" or a "fake" because you don't like their room name, or because they don't have black hair and talk about suicide all the time is stupid. How do you know what that person feels? How do you know what this person thinks? You don't know them, so then what makes you think you know all about them. To me one that likes to tell others how they are lame, or fake without knowing them makes them the most unrealistic people around, a monkey, perhaps a follower of the mainstream themselves when they think they are the ones so different. Get to know someone and drop the egotistical debates. There is no one definition to the word Gothic. Goth may have a place of origin, but Gothic and Goth are easily tied together. Below perhaps you will gather a better understanding of the subculture, and how it fits with us today.I would never place myself as an equal, or below a person, that lives a life with their kids eating at mcdonalds 4 days a week. I would never consider myself less or equal to a person that puts nothing fourth into the planet itself, but instead to an invisable entity, while ignoring its creation. Some would call this my ego, I call it caring for what I see every day. If a person wants to degrade my way of thinking, to justify their shitty life they are free to do so, just don't expect me to follow along. As I have done in the past while seeing others do so much more for a planet than me, I don't degrade their efforts and achievements. I admire them, I learn from them, and grow with what they teach.It seems so many people need things explained to them, so that they can know all or most, have things explained, and then fear death even less. I think the fear of death is natural, and so it is also natural to not fear it, it just depends on the person. Sometimes as we grow older we gain the acceptance of death being a part of life, and not necessarily being the end. When people do not seem to understand things beyond their life, they search for answers, and if they were not able to find them, they then begin to become afraid of what they can't understand. Because of all this fear, then we begin to create the stories of which we title as religion to comfort us and make us less afraid of death and what lies beyond. Instead of perhaps using in our lives the common sense of positive and negative energy to live a life of personal growth and to help what we see yet ignore, many instead follow a book based on an entity that doesn't show itself, and condemns what is completely natural human behavior. Also it is a way to control large groups of people, often stripping them of originality, and an open mind in the process. Is war a natural part of human behavior? I am not sure but do believe that a lot of it is caused by the illogical beliefs in religion, and disregard for someone's ownership, beliefs, or for the purpose of gaining lands or materials. <">