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WOW 8 years. 8 years since my sister passed away.

So much has happen in 8 years.  So much she has missed, how she would have enjoyed, and a lot she wouldn’t have. I miss her, think of often conversations we would have had over the past year. The things she would have loved hearing about.

A lot of the pain is gone after all these years but the sorrow is there, the sorrow is deep.

As always and forever will be, I love you sis, miss you very much. 

I had surgery on my right eye on Tuesday. Three weeks after having surgery done to fix a complicating caused by my diabetes (which is healing nicely, but still healing from) and two week from having surgery on my left eye.

I am doing well at the moment. Was a long tuesday morning but once we got into surgery the day went fast, By the time the day was done, majority of it was a blur, but I was home and safe, resting and done.

I will know more on Wednesday how it all went so will be starting to recover from that and start getting ready for the next one.

I like to thank all that have giving me support by messages, calling me (especially on the day of surgery), and those driving me back and forth to/from all the surgeries.

Since I had this one done, I do know what it will be like in two weeks and will be more prepare for the surgery on March 29.

I had surgery on Friday to fix a complication caused by my diabetes and I have to say I not feeling as bad as I thought I would be at this pint. I’m healing nicely and been getting good rest.  Walking slowly but able to stand for a while and sit for a bit as well. Making sure that I try to do anything to tear up my stitches.

So now that this is done and out of the way now all I have to do is heal and get ready for my next surgery, which will be on March 15 for my right eye (I have cataracts) and soon after that would be my left eye.

Long few days of thinking.

Monday I was told that I have developed cataracts. Now I’m a bit happy that its something that can be corrected, for a while there I was thinking I was loosing my vision.

As it slowly sank in, on Tuesday I did more research abut cataracts and what the surgery intel. Now that was a big mistake. Saw a video on the whole procedure and wow that really freaked me out. It took me a day to take that in and just think that positive of it all. I will see better.

Only down part of the whole thing is I’m going t be dealing with all this alone, would be nice to have someone during the recovery period.

Christmas is a happy time, a time for family. In my family it’s a mix feeling time of year. I try not to think of it much because it’s a downer for sure.

Christmas eve was the ninth anniversary of my father passing. Wow almost ten years ago a whole decade.

Even tho it’s been that long, I still remember that Christmas eve. Living here in Kansas, I was calling NYC and wishing my family a merry Christmas. Dad been battling throat cancer. And was doing well. I called and I first talked with my mom, she told me how festive everyone was and that she had a good talk with my dad. Talked about the good and the bad about their relationship. Cleared a lot of air. Before having dinner that night he took a nap. So there I was talking to her as she tells me this and I got to talk with the rest of the family. I had a good conversation with my sister and my grandmother, and once again with my mom. Then she asked if I wanted to talk to him, I said sure and she tried to wake him form his nap. No reaction, She told me that she needed to hang up and call 911.

The next day (Christmas day) I got a called that he passed away. So I just packed a few things and drove to NYC for a funeral.

Ever since then Christmas hasn’t been that happy of an event for my family even tho I try real hard to be cheerful with my family but he loom largely over my family (mostly my mom for good reason). .

Well I got that off my chest, feel better to letting that out a bit. I just know that it’s going to be hard from my mom next year.

The last seven weekends has been a great time for me, seven weekend of attending the KC Renaissance Fair. I had a great time, I got to make new friends, see old friends, and have a lot of great time and made a lot of fun memories. At times almost got to meet new friends. Looking forward to doing it all over again next year.

If anything this is the one thing I post mostly about it, I think its because I'm a private person and out of all things I do discuss a lot about this cause it is important to me. Another years and another birthday of my sister is here and going soon, never to see a year older, to be foreever 33.

I miss my sister, lover her dearly every day, I smile with the thoguht of her enjoying being 41 this year.I think she would have had a lot of fun, she would have enjoyed turning 41 and just being in her 40s.

Sad day for me, but I will get around it. Just a sad day.

I had a good weekend, spent it with friends having a party. We had a good time, good music and a good fun.

I had a great evening. Tonight, my friends and  I went to Kansas City to see Kevin Smith in person, as he did his 'A night with Kevin Smith' live.

It was an entertaining and fun evening, it lived up to my expectations and I laughed all night long.

For those who don't know, Kevin Smith is a screenwriter, film producer, and director, as well as a comic book writer, author, comedian, and actor. He is also the co-founder, with Scott Mosier, of View Askew Productions and owner of Jay and Silent Bob's Secret Stash comic and novelty store in Red Bank, New Jersey. He also hosts a weekly podcast with Scott Mosier known as SModcast. Smith is known for participating in long, humorous Q&A sessions that are often filmed for DVD release, beginning with An Evening with Kevin Smith.

His films are often set in his home state of New Jersey, and while not strictly sequential, they do frequently feature crossover plot elements, character references, and a shared canon in what is known by fans as the "View Askewniverse", named after his production company View Askew Productions. He has produced numerous films and television projects, including Clerks, Dogma, and Zack and Miri Make a Porno.

His Q&A sessions are humorous and about his career as a screenwriter, film producer, director, comic book, author, and actor as well as some of his personal life.

Yesterday was a hard day for me, my grandmother passed away on this date on 2007, and it was hard to loose someone I have known for all my life and another person in the family in the short period.

When she passed away she was short of her 99th birthday, she would have been 101 today.

She was a good woman, worked hard, and raised her 12 kids, with my mother being one of them. She took care of me, she loved me, she showed me how to cook. She help me become a better person.

I miss her.