MY DAD TURNED 65 ON JUNE 13. I LOVE HIM VERY MUCH. HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN A GOOD FATHER AND PROVIDER FOR ME. BUT, I WANT TO KNOW SOMETHING. WHY CAN'T I HUG HIM OR KISS HIM OR EXPRESS THE WAY I FEEL TO HIM? WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME? WHY AM I LIKE THIS? HE LIVES WITH ME BUT, HE SPENDS MOST OF THE TIME IN MEXICALI, MEXICO. 2 WEEKS AGO HE WAAS RIGHT HERE AND HE WAS NOT FEELING TO GOOD SO HE WENT TO MEXICALI TO SEE HIS DOCTOR. YESTERDAY HE CAME AND I ASKED HIM WHAT DID THE DOCTOR SAY? HE SAID THAT THE DOCTOR TOLD HIM THAT HE SUFFERED A STROKE. OF COURSE I FELT REALLY BAD BUT, I DID NOT SHOW IT. TODAY WHEN HE WAS ABOUT TO LEAVE BECAUSE HE IS GOING TO MEXICO. WELL ALL THE WAY WHERE HE IS FROM. HE STARTED CRYING AND I ASKED HIM WHAT'S WRONG? HE SAID NOTHING. I TOLD HIM WHY ARE YOU CRYING? WHAT DIDN'T YOU TELL US? HE SAID NOTHING. HE HAS GONE TO MEXICO BEFORE BUT, HE HAS NEVER CRYED BECAUSE HE WAS LEAVING THAT'S WHY I WAS ASKING HIM SO MANY QUESTIONS.MAN PEOPLE WHEN I SAW HIM CRYING I WANTED TO RUN TO HIM AND HUG HIM..... BUT, I COULDN'T ... DAMN IT I DON'T UNDERSTAND... IMAGINE YOUR OLD MAN STANDING INFRONT OF YOU CRYING... AND YOU DIDN'T HUG HIM .. HOW WOULD YOU FEEL RIGHT NOW? I FEEL LIKE SHIT.. WHY WAS I BROUGHT UP THIS WAY? I DON'T WANT MY KIDS TO BE LIKE THIS .... I AM GOING TO THIS PROGRAM IT'S CALLED ACTITUD CIMA IS REALLY HELPING ME ALOT BUT, I'M STILL NOT AT THE POINT WHERE I COULD BRING MY SELF TO HUG MY FATHER... I WANT TO BE ABLE TO DO IT BEFORE IS TO LATE.. YOU MIGHT TELL YOURSELF WELL JUST DO IT... WELL WHEN YOU GROW UP IN AN ENVIORMENT WHEN YOUR MOTHER NEVER HUGGED YOU OR YOUR FATHER FOR THAT MATTER AND ALL YOUR MOTHER KNEW WAS HOW TO DO KICK YOUR ASS AND YOUR FATHER ONLY KNEW HOW TO BUY YOU WHAT EVER YOU WANTED. IT WOULD BE HARD ASS HELL FOR YOU TO DO IT TOO. IT DOESN'T MEAN THAT I DON'T WANT TO.. I JUST FEEL BAD RIGHT KNOW.. I NEED TO HEAR SOME FEEDBACK... THANX FOR LISTENING..
