"I know that it's a wonderful world but I can't feel it right now. I thought that I was doing well but I just want to cry now.Well, I know that it's a wonderful world , from the sky down to the sea, but I can only see it when you're here, here with me." James Morrison. This world is so huge sometimes and at times so small. Tonight the miles seem huge and the ocean seems so wide.It always feels that way when what you want is far from you. Tonight for a few great moments, the world became small. As I talked to my love, the world became small enough to fit into the palm of my hand, for our words were flowing together like the sea and the ocean combined. We are constantly gravitating to each other, constantly making the earth form around us in order to facilitate our merge, but how horrible it is to be so close yet not touching. I battle with the question of, Is it harder to leave or harder to stay behind? I recently left my love behind, yet again, to live in the atmosphere we created together. I feel like an eagle who has flown free for a glorious length of time, only to fly directly into a cloud and come out on another peak. I fly but I yearn for my nest on the high peak I call Taza. My love is left to the memories, the smells, the looks and feel of our great love, our breathtaking connection and the entanglement of our strong bond and longing. I think of him as lucky to be in the mist of our glorious atmosphere, but for him it's torture to feel but not touch, smell but not see, reach out but not grab. I pray that God can tilt this earth just enough to help us flow down the same stream, through the same valley and end up forming as one body in a crystal sea together or even flowing over the same cliff. Ohiboka aktar min hayati Mouhssine El Khoudri.Wait for me my darling and someday we will not have to look over our shoulders in departure, but just close our arms and enjoy the embrace. I love you for who you are. My moon, my love, my calm. Thank you for loving me and letting me love you back
