So… I got to thinking yesterday at work (after lunch when things seems to flood into my inbox) that I’ve been at this particular job for 2 years. I told my mom when she came to have lunch with me before she went back to Ohio that I didn’t’ even feel proud that I had stuck it out that long. I felt miserable and beaten. All those people that didn’t make it I thought of them as smart and lucky.
And I sat here at my desk and my fingers typed slower and slower as I dwelled on that thought. Did I really want to be here another two years? Or even just another year?
At that moment I took a phone call from a rather difficult client and for some reason it sent me into tears. It was as though that one call and that man confirmed my thoughts.
All I want it to enjoy what I do. Doesn’t even have to be every day but I’d like to actually have a passion for what I do at work.
And that’s not going to happen here. What do I have to look forward to? No advancement. One personal day earned a month. A 3% raise every year.
That’s it.
So I’m poking my nose around looking at degrees I can earn online. I’d like to go back to school but I can’t do that and pay the bills. So online looks to be the way to go.
The question then is: what kind of a degree? What do I want to do? What do I think I could possibly enjoy doing?
Browsing through some of the searches online I did turn up a few that seemed interesting.
Criminal Justice sounds like something I would enjoy. The attention to detail in a CSI is appealing.
Who knows.
But it’s a start to doing something different with my professional life.
