Potty Mouth of Luxuria's blog: "Can it be that it was all so simple then?"

I used to be the biggest sap wear my heart on my sleeve and never know better. Now everytime Iget someone good in my life I can't do the simplest thing to keep them there. I think I show how I feel and I think I am doing right by them but then it turns out I am an asshole that doesn't know how to love someone. All i really want is to be in love or at least in like and have the other person know it. Instead I come across as a pervert or an asshole that is cold and uncaring. Maybe I have been burned...a lot but I always thought I got over it I guess not. You never can love like you did when you were 15 I guess.

I remember a time when going to work was fine it didn't mean you couldn't do anything else. Even in high school my job never hinderred my social progress now I am in the peak of my social life, and I don't have time for it. I make good money and I can do pretty much anything I want, but now if I am not at work I just want to veg out. It is so weird who would have thought when there was nothing to do I would always be bored. And now with tons to do I am just trying to sit home and be bored. I don't get it I guess the grass really is greener on the other side.