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The wall’s are up, the gates are closed…..

The Castle look’s silent, secluded and vacant…..

The Dragon’s stand ready to fight behind the walls…..

But, are the Dragon’s ready for what’s in store??….

In the woods the Demon’s stand ready to engage and destroy the Dragon’s in battle. ….

When the night falls the Demon’s begin their attack…..

The Dragon’s fight back and strike with a lot of force,….

Little to no damage was inflicted against the mighty Demons…..

The Demon’s fought with little force and inflicted massive damage…..

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The Demon’s are Black with eyes of fire…..

Full of hatred, and take no regrets for what they do…..

The Dragon’s are white as snow and very loyal…..

They are full of courage, very well disciplined but, very inexperienced…..

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The Demon’s are very hot-headed…..

They refuse to quit, and keep on attacking…..

They are very surprised to see how inexperienced the Dragon’s are…..

They admire their courage not to quit and how they will fight till the death to defend what belongs to them. ….

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The Dragon’s fall back and regroup….

They are forced to make a contingency plan on how to take this attack…..

They refuse to take a loss and will not quit…..

They recuperate and begin to strike back with the force of 10,000 Angel’s…..

The Demon’s are overwhelmed and taken off guard…..

The Dragon’s attack caused massive damage. ….

Many Demons’ lives were lost and many were injured…..

The Demon’s retreat, unable to continue battle…..

The strike back was way too much and the Demon’s are unable to go on…..

The Dragon’s leaved their castle and begins the chase the Demon’s into to woods…..

The Demon’s soon find them surrounded by Dragon’s in no time at all…..

The Dragon’s hold them at bay or so they thought!!….

My Demon’s are not so easily defeated and refuse to be taken at will…..

The leader of my Demon’s Dermious, say’s my soldiers, ….

“Take Our Stand On The Firing Line, Take A Stand And Fight With All We Got”,….

“So What That We Are Surrounded And Outnumbered, When Has This Stopped Us Before??”….

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The Dragon’s draw back and very surprised…..

The Demon’s have spoken word’s of true soldiers…..

They want a war they will never forget!….

The Dragon’s and Demon’s both know they are in a tough battle and,….

A Very Challenging one at that. They both know that this battle will cost many; many more lives will be lost before this war is over…..

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They both line up and prepare to wage this battle with all they got…..

They stand face to face and begin to battle man to man…..

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This is what goes through my head every day I am alive…..

ill I Leave Your Side Never
There is so much suffering and complete pain
That it surrounds my heart and soul these days
That my Spirit gets stronger “cause there is a fight
That remains I am still needed here on this Earth
I have accomplished alot of hardship and obstucticles
All i have ever known is to give my love out freely to strangers
But to my admaze these strangers are my family I have never known
They come from and wide of distances from where I am
Now I am learning thier ways of thinking and life
Watching over them through their rough and good times
Prayng that they find thier way back to where they belong
Just hoping on a wing and prayer cause I have nothing else to offer them
To gather them closely and protectively under my wings
So much I wanna say and do for them right now
But I know in tiem through me they will find thier ways back
I know and grasped their confusion that remains inside of them
For i have seen it with my own eyes and felt it with my own heart
Will they grasped the knowledge and wisdom i have learnt through time
Only time as it passes me by I pray that their hatred surpasses them
They can grow to love one other as i adore andlove them no matter
I see how humans are hurting each other i felt that grief inside of me everyday
But I look pass it and learn to forgive those who hurt me
I jsut pray they learn to do that too andlet it go and continue their ways
I wonder all the time why i should remain here when i shouldnt be
Its for my family to show them my strength and that i am their hope
That i relized it only takes one person to love and to show its meaning
For those who stood by me even when i gave up
You all gave me something to think about
I love you all dearly and this page is for you all

I Did This For You
Hard as stone
Delicate as butterfly wings
I’m trying to tell you how I feel
It’s not easy turning you away
Pulling me in pushing me away
I don’t understand please explain
I’m burning alive inside to out
Refusing to live without you
But how to be with you
I don’t know what to do
Walking to the drawer thinking do or not to
Good or bad die or live
You gave me life so let me die
Slit my throat watching my reflection
Blood running down my shirt
I hope you realize now
I did this for you
Be happy without me all
All I wanted was love
But I guess that was too much

I love you now and till the very end
I’m praying dear lord we are more than friends
Your friends tease me more than ever
I wish I were born never
Wishing I could taste you kiss just once
Or send me one little hunch
You don’t care,
I’d rather be aware
Than to be a pone in your games
Looking at your picture you say I love you
I think aww that’s so kewl
Next day your saying that so someone that’s not me
All I do is stare and cry
Thinking of all that’s died and dry
Not friends nothing at all
Without you I sit
My life is like an empty hall
You were all I had
Now I have nothing at all
Friends see me as mad
I know all I am is and empty body no soul
You took it with you when you left
And I’m paying the toll…

She had always liked him.  But never truly knew why.

He never talked to her.  His friends had made her cry.

She smiled at him in the hall.  He just turned his head.

He did not care about her.  Is what he always said.

But she kept her chin up.  And she loved him still.

Because she knew what was inside.  A hole that she could fill .

His friends soon caught word,  Of her feelings toward him.

They found it hysterical.  But her love did not dim.

She knew that she was better.  Than what they thought she was.

But still her heart was his.  For reasons she knew not of.

She slowly became more forlorn.  Slipping deep into a hole.

He was still ignoring her.  Breaking her delicate soul.

But her love did not falter.  She always thought of him.

But all the rumors about her.  Put her closer to the brim .

On the final day,  His friends played a trick.

Told her that he loved her.  Just to watch her tick.

Sadly she believed them .  And she was overjoyed.

Little did she know,  That it was all a plot.

She went up to him.  To make sure that he knew.

That she knew how he felt.  And that she loved him too

He did not understand.  So all he did was stare.

Telling her repeatedly,  That he really did not care.

She was finally over the edge.  She knew it could not be true.

I thought they said he loved her.  But deep inside she knew .

She could not comprehend.  How to go on living her life.

So she went in to the kitchen.  Pulled out the sharpest knife .

She screamed into the air.  This is not how it should be.

She screamed all the things,  That she wished that he would see

She spoke of her love .  She cried of her pain.

She whispered of what happened,  How it could never be the same,

And with her last strength,  She scribbled her final note,

She explained everything.  And this is what she wrote:

Take the shining knife,  And cut open my wrists.

Watch the blood flow out.  It couldve ended with a kiss.

Take the bloody knife.  Write words into my skin.

Tell me that you hate me.  Make the pain begin.

Take the knife and hold it up.  So that everyone can see .

That this is the pain.  You were always causing me.

She watched the blood pour out.  Collapsing on the floor.

Little did she know.   That he was at the door.

He did not get an answer.  As he screamed her name.

He told her he was sorry.   What he said was really lame.

He did not want to give up.   He wanted her to know.

That he really did like her.   Just did not let it show.

He did not care about his friends.   They were not his anymore.

So please, wont you please .  Just open the damn door .

He walked to the window.   Saw her lying there.

He pounded on the glass.   Crying in despair

He broke through the glass.   And knelt down on the floor.

Looking at the girl.   He had always adored.

Desperately calling for help.   She was still alive.

He tried to bandage wounds.  Please God let her survive!!

He held her so close.   As the ambulance drew near.

I really do love you.   He whispered in her ear.

Please dont give up.   I’ll try to help you through.

We will make it work.  You know I love you too.

I called your name today,
Mine was never called.
I looked into your eyes,
I realized you are no longer my home.
I tried to dream of you,
But, I can no longer see your face.
I Finally realized I dont need you.
I just want our promises kept.
I release you from our forever,
But, I hold you to the future.
My eye’s fall closed,
Because, I know history repeats it’s self.
I try to find Happiness inside Hope.
I hope for everything to be better.
And maybe we will see.

If i were to die in my sleep,
would anybody care?
If i were to slip my wrists,
would anybody care?
If i were to slice my throut,
would anybody care?
If i were to get hit by a car,
would anybody care?
If i were to stop breathing,
would anybody care?
If i were to run far away,
would anybody care?
If i stopped talking to everyone,
would anybody care?
If i started taking pills,
would anybody care?
If i Overdosed on drugs,
would anybody care?
If i were to die right now,
would anybody care?
If i hung myself from a tree,
would anybody care?
If i were to bungy jump without a rope,
would anybody care?
If i blew my brains out,
would anybody care?

Sittin behind closed doors
can barley move
so frustrated and sad
depressed and lonely
I feel like the devil has risen
I feel like I’ve communited a crime
I feel so terrible inside
my heart is so empty
my brain so full with stuff I don’t need
I feel like im living in hell
I feel like I should be shot
I just don’t know what I want right now
I feel so empty inside
I feel I have no friends no parents no family no nothing
I feel I have nobody
all I feel like I is a piece of dust
nobody likes me nobody loves me
I just wanna craw up into a ball
an stay there forever and ever so nobody will notice me
I just wana die so I don’t bother anybody
I just try to be myself but I cant seem to fit anywhere
im just a trouble maker so why stick around
I just wanna go an hide in a corner and starve
myself and maybe nobody will noitce me
I just wanna sit in my room and cry until I get my hate and anger out.
I just wanna die Die die die die
I wish I could restart my life I regret all of the hurtfull things I did to my parents and friends
I just feel well not like myself anymore
I feel like I could have done better but I didn’t.

My Defintion of Love
Love is a battle field.
Where all you do is learn.
There are no safe point’s
Everyone betrays everyone
And there are no friends.
Everyone hates you,
Happiness is only an illusion
Love is just a word.
Word’s have no meaning’s
Leaving leaves only regret’s,
Shadows are forever enternal
Haunted and True
Pain is the only thing truely there.
And in the end,
NOTHING MATTER’S

In Silence I Pray,
Holding tranqulity inside.
Lost Love and Pride
Secrets locked within
Hope and Dreams begin
Searching for answer’s
Shall the sign’s of yesterday
Role over the sorrow’s of today
Sittin in the darkness of shadows
But I never fear because
Happiness is just a hug away
Depression clouds my heart
Holding my loved one close
From the begining to start
Just go ahead and make a wish
And I hold my loved one’s hand
Because forever is in our heart’s