RAFE's blog: "broken wings"

Well, even with all the overwhelming events and information this past few weeks, I've managed to survive. The other night I finally stood up for myself. Most people would not be able to call me a quiet, submissive person that takes crap from people because most of the time, I'm not like that at all. There are, however, these certain people that have known me for quite some time that have been able to get to me. They dig down deep into my heart, soul, thoughts, memories, dreams, and past. They know things about me that I do not even know myself and they know just what to use against me to get me to do whatever they please. The other day I finally realized how to get out of all this and I actually did something for myself. It feels good to not only be getting out of this but to also know I did on my own. Life is looking up again and for now I am quite happy. Good day, all.

Well, I've recently discovered that my entire life has been a lie. Where I came from is a lie, who I came from is a lie, who I am is a lie. I thought I was something that I am not. I thought I was someone that I am not. I thought had a certain life, but it's all gone now... I've always heard that the truth hurts. I didn't know it could hurt this much. I feel like my life and everything I've ever known has been taken away from me. The solid ground beneath my feet, that stupid lie, was knocked out from under me and I've fallen onto the hard, cold ground, the truth. Only, it feels like I'm still falling and I'm not sure there's a way back up... Yeah, for future reference, I'm not always that depressing. I've been in a weird mood lately and needed to get it out.