im trying to accept the change but it gets harder every day
to walk past her without touching her, not saying what i used to say
living together but not as a couple turns out to be too much to bare
i have to bury my desires and feelings, not showing that i care
for three years its been automatic to caress her shapely behind
now i must stop my hand in mid air , with only emptiness to find
i'll slip and call her hun or babe, then cringe at my mistake
to be so close to her everyday , only to feel my heart break
i admire her sexy build, in me it creates a burning desire
but its all for not, as her cold shoulder puts out the fire
its one of the hardest things ive done, staying in this place
its like her heart never had me, theres no wanting in her face
god be with me while im here, till i get where ever i belong
i dont understand why im weak, while she seems so strong
everyday my heart hurts , i want to touch and share my love
if this pain is how ill live, lord please take me up above