after 6 years you'd think you know a person. turns out he was just using me. i dont think he really loved me. and now his kids are gonna grow up with out their father. if he can cheat lie and just walk out on us then why would i let him near my kids. the problem is i hate that i love him. but its getting nasty now and it hurts more each day. i hate feeling this way. all i do is cry when no one can see and im cant eat. why would some one do this when i have stood by him through a whole lot of shit so he can just walk away to go play? i hate what he has done to kids. my 4 yr old is acting out so bad.
