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Recently I was faces with some news that really racked my mind,body and soul. A week before my 34th birthday,I had a radiation Ct to check on the status of my spleen and when I called to get the results, on my birthday weekend I was told they wouldn't give me the results over the phone like passed results, and that I had to come into the Cancer center and see the Dr.
So on a weekend I'm supposed to have a stress free weekend full of laughter and love. I was faced with uncertainty an a big dose of what if.
So I put on this fake smile and a brave face to shelter my mini me,my family an friends. Cause I don't want to face the possibilities for a few more days at least.
So the morning of my birthday, I awake and put this brave face on yet again.An head to the cancer center. And once getting back there. I'm told...
One,we have no answer on why your spleen an lymph nodes are doing this.
Two,We what to test for all the bone an bone marrow cancer's and my heart sank!
Three, you'll go into surgery for this And soon.
I was shocked an was like wtf and why me all in one big bunch of feelings. So after having a moment an not breaking my brave face, I called immediately to family and friends.
It was not even 48 hours later, I received words that I would have this surgery in just a day an half. An the waiting an what if began.
So now I'm post op and had a few days to process a few things. I still what to question why me. But truly it's very unfair to ask that. So I will run with whatever the good lord hands me and I'll fight and come out better and stronger.
I'm not worried as much as I was before cause honestly the word Cancer has been in my family mouth for a few years. But now I'm like I got this... I have a awesome support system and awesome friends from all over who will be there. So it's going to be okay.
My support system... words can't even describe the love and appreciation, I have for you all. So now as we wait. I want to say don't worry...
We will beat whatever it is.
An thank you for all your love.
