Ocean Dream's blog: "Tainted"

Let it go… By T. D. Jakes There are people who can walk away from you. And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk. I don’t want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone. When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left. The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19] People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can’t make them stay. Let them go. And it doesn’t mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over And you’ve got to know when people’s part in your story is over so that you don’t keep trying to raise the dead. You’ve got to know when it’s dead. You’ve got to know when it’s over. Let me tell you something. I’ve got the gift of good-bye. It’s the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It’s not that I’m hateful, it’s that I’m faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He’ll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don’t need it. Stop begging people to stay. Let them go!! If you are holding on to something that doesn’t belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to…… LET IT GO!!! If you are holding on to past hurts and pains ……. LET IT GO!!! If someone can’t treat you right, love you back, and see your worth….. LET IT GO!!! If someone has angered you …….. LET IT GO!!! If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge…… LET IT GO!!! If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction….. LET IT GO!!! If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents LET IT GO!!! If you have a bad attitude……. LET IT GO!!! If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better…… LET IT GO!!! If you’re stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him…… LET IT GO!!! If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship……………….. LET IT GO!!! If you keep trying to help someone who won’t even try to help themselves….. LET IT GO!!! If you’re feeling depressed and stressed ……… LET IT GO!!! If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying “take your hands off of it,” then you need to…… LET IT GO!!! Let the past be the past. Forget the former things. GOD is doing a new thing for 2007!!! LET IT GO!!! Get Right or Get Left . think about it, and then .. LET IT GO!!!

You took everything, I held dear to my heart. Now theres nothing left, I just fall apart. Cold empty feeling hatred burns inside. Your with me every waking moment No where safe to hide. Trapped inside this nightmare unable to awake. Hurting me so deeply, its more than I can take. No one I can turn to for no one feels this pain. Shutting down completely slowly going insane. Wishing I could take back the things you took from me. Unlock the chains that bind me longing to be set free. You got what you wanted im cold almost dead Pictures of you haunt me nightmares fill my head. I sit here feeling numb in the cold and lonely place. You took away my dreams reality I must face. Nothings pure anymore .....Tainted..... PassionatePoet

What being Bipolar means in my eyes Thank you kayla for saving my life with Medication and Education I can beat the "Demons" Lost How can this be? How can I survive,when all I want to do is die.I need you but can't tell you I'm down. so afraid of loosing you.Too afraid to live,to love, to let anyone in.Can't see my beginning, can't seemy ending.Feel like I am blind,walking in a black never endingtunnel of despair.Want to end it all,but too tired and numb to care.I feel you somewhere at the endof the long tunnel, but don't knowhow to get there.Frozen in space and time,I cry out for help and understanding.But no one answers,no one can hear me.For my lips do not move.No sound comes from my mouth.For all I can do is call out fromthe dark frozen tunnels of my mind.My heart frozen in fear,my soul frozen in despair.Oh PLEASE, PLEASElook into my eyes, see me there.Help me, Hold me, Love me. Paint Brush I keep my paint brush with meWhereever I may go,In case I need to cover upSo the real me doesn't show.Afraid of what you'll do-thatYou might laugh or say mean things.I'm afraid I might lose you. I'd like to remove all my paint coatsTo show you the real, true ,me,But I want you to try and understand,I need you to accept what you see.So if you'll be patient and close your eyes,I'll strip off all my coats real slow.Please understand how much it hurtsTo let the real me show. Now my coats are all stripped off.I feel naked, bare and cold,And if you still love me with all that you see,You are my friend, pure as gold.I need to save my paintbrush, though,And hold it in my hand,I want to keep it handyIn case someone doesn't understand.So please protect me, my dear friendAnd thanks for loving me true,But please let me keep my paint brush with meUntil I love me, too.