4-18-07
Eyes the color of the morning ocean
Skin as soft as her teddy bear
She looks up at me with her icey blue eyes and giggles with excitement
She gives nothing but love and asks for nothing but care
The 9 months was worth the pain for this beautiful baby girl looking at me
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4-19-07
She is beautiful
So soft and sweet in my arms
Sleeping so quietly next to me
Waking up she makes a slight gurgling noise as if to say hi and then smiles up with her bright green eyes
She never cries
Shes happy and mellow as if she knows she belongs only with me
She makes me smile everytime i think about her or look at her beautiful face
She is the one thing I've dreamed of my entire life
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4-20-07
The days go by and my baby girls growing up
Her hair, a bright blonde, almost white, but long, beautiful
Shes now 6 months and she already crawlin
She stands up on her own and falls but never stops trying
She still giggles up a storm, happy, content
She trys to say ''ma'' but she just kinda laughs it out
Shes my beautiful baby girl and shes worth every second
My one and only child but not for long.....
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4-23-07
Its hard when you dont open up to me and I know your upset
Its hard when your mad and I dont know what for
Its hard when it sit there knowing you have no idea how I feel
You told me I wouldnt get hurt again and I believe you.....
But you dont see how your hurting me now
I just got out of a relationship where I delt with fighting for 8 months and I know you play around but the way you do it scares me
I want to explain to you how it was and.....
Its hard when I cant do it for fear of losing you...
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4-23-07
I dont know how to keep anything good in my life
I always end up screwing something up
I dont mean to do things that I do and people dont see that
I dont know how to deal with something good because I've only been hurt all my life
I've never had anything good that lasted and I'm scared because I'm about lose another
This boy keeps me sane
He keeps me happy
But it seems I cant do the same for him
It makes me feel like shit that I cant do anything right anymore
But whoever reads this I'm sorry for all I did I'm so sorry
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4-23-07
I'm alone in this cold world singing to myself because no one listens to my sad cries
I sit here
Acid rain from my eyes, burning my cheeks
The tears dip into my mouth
Salty pain is what I taste
Sadness and worry is all I feel
Until I see his beautiful eyes shining my way, almost as blue as ice
He took me in, gave me love, and still the ending is the same
I get torn apart inside but never let him see what I feel
It scares me to think he'll leave
Because his touch is so warm, it melts this icey heart that lies inside this beautiful soul
I wish he saw what he means to me
