Just some more random thoughts I had wrote a while back...still holds true. Guess I really haven't changed that much. (Psst) This is the getting to know me better without having to ask questions part... (HAH)
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I hate to fight, argue or anything that remotely causes friction. I refuse to do things half ass and really strive to put my heart into everything that I do whether it be work, relationships, or whatever. If something really means something to me or someone I care about, I want it done well...and well over any expectations or requirements made. I can't see how people let themselves sit back and just let things go....laziness or whatever have you. I mean, don't get me wrong, there are times I get on my "lazy" kicks...we're all guilty of it in some way, shape or form. Seriously though, on most matters of importance if you don't put your heart into it, then what is it really worth to you. What's really bad is that I know I've got a tremendous sized heart...and it really gets me into trouble. People tell me that I give to much, fall too heard or whatever. But that's all I know. I give one hundred percent before thinking about myself, I love with everything I have in me... Life's too short not to. I don't know if I'm going to be alive tomorrow or even ten minutes from now. That's nothing that's in my control. I would hope that I live to see tomorrow and many years to come....I still have quite a bit I'd love to do in life....but that's not any of my control. I do my best to live each day the fullest I possibly can and make the most out of what I have.
I don't understand the people that just can't bare not to have drama in their life. I don't understand how someone can truly feed off of that. Something really stuck into my head at one point in time when an exgirlfriend of mine told me that I "wasn't fun to fight with." How in the Hell is fighting fun? I'm sorry I don't see it in any form or fashion fun. I really don't see a point in it. It's going to happen because we are human and have our own little quirks...but fighting being fun???? Ya I really don't see how that is possible. I mean, I've had the whole "take your anger out on me" sexual outtake before...that was nice and all because it got really interesting...but I mean come on....if you can't perform that way without being angry, what is really your true capabilities and strengths. That whole "because the sex is so much better when you're mad at me" thing....ya well, whatever. How the Hell did I get on the subject of sex??? O- go figure it's on Enigma's Erotic dreams.... Haha. But seriously, don't these people know that the best "love making" if you will is whenever you really get to know the partner you're with...you find out what makes them tick...pay attention to where their buttons are....look in their eyes when you make love...HELLO...the eyes are the opening to the soul! You can see soooo much in someone's eyes...which brings me into another topic...
Looking into someone's eyes. You know You can really tell alot about a person with the way they look at you. You can even go to the extent of whether they are a good person or not. There's alot of truth, honesty and purity that pours out of them. That's honestly why when I look at someone...their eyes are the first thing I pay attention to. You can tell so much... And then....after enough time, if there's a deep enough connection it can either bring the two of you together or help the other person to feel what you are. Am I making sense??
