its kind of ironic when you dont really want to live
yet each day you try , your smile and love to give
wanting to brighten ones day, when yours is dark as coal
the contrast eats at you and little by little it takes its toll
but the fucking light wont go out, it remains a dim flicker
the good wants to regain life, while the bad wants to die quicker
you dont care about yourself yet there is compassion for others
you actually pray for the ones you call sisters and brothers
others know you hurt but have no clue of the pain your in
as you go to sleep you pray that you wont open your eyes again
with love ill make this world a better place as long as im still here
ill try to smile and show kindness to all while i hide the tear
i dont know where im going with this, theres a message down deep
until i change my mind or no more awake, ill pray God my soul to keep