Life is full of changes, some are planned, other are not. And w/life it seems that the unplanned ones happen all the time.
Two and half yrs ago a unplanned/life changing thing happened to me that, I Don't Regret or would ever NEVER change. Oct 2004 i became a farther, a parent. An in the past 2.5yrs been understanding what it means to be a parent, a dad, a farther. But im learning in a way i hadn't planned, or wanted to be.
Long story short, i was w/someone, an we get pregnant. I say "we" cuz we all say that when we tell ppl. Its simple, it takes 2 to make a person, not one. Anyway, these past 2.5yrs has not been that easy for me, an my child's mother has not been the greatest of persons to be w/or try to talk with. 2.5 yrs ago i i have tried an tried to talk w/her set up something so we could talk. She says "sure one of these days no prob we can talk" but it hasnt happen, an im tired of her BS an tired of having to see my daughter when she says its ok, an most of all im tired of when i do see my daughter at her parents home (where my X lives, still at home,shell be 35 this yr) when i go to her parents house, its like a supervised visit w/my daughter, an its only for a few hrs. Cant take her anywhere, cant even take her to see my side of the family. My daughter dont even know she has a other side of her family that she has never met. My X is a mean person. I could say worse but not goin to. After knowing her like i do i know shes a good person an dont mean most to half the things she may say.
You see im the product of a one parent home/raising. And my mom did a great job raisin 2 boys, it wasn't easy, but i can not complain. I Never wanted my child or children to go up, go threw what i did. But things never seem to go as u plan it, and u have to go w/ the plan, cards, whatever is laid iout for u.
I call kids that are raised by one parent, as being in "the club" its always growing, an theres a never ending stop of new members. We may never know who's in the "club" but when we do find a member we have the same story and a new friend.
Anyway, i don't get to see my daughter as much as i like, an calling my x to see my daughter is never easy. it takes 2, 3 weeks sometimes a mth just to get a answer or to set something up to see my daughter. And when i an able its just for a few hrs I know i have had 2.5yrs to get off my ass to do something, an believe me i have tried many times only to get put in front of a road block by something.
But that's going to change this Monday, ill be goin to see a lawyer at a legal aid place. I would get a normal attorney but i dont have the money for one, an every time i seem to be close to havin the money, something gets in the way. Life seems to get in the way an it Sucks.I know that prob sounds liek a cop out, are that im dragging my ass on things. Im not, believe me im not.
I not asking alot, just more, an better visitation, an be able to take my daughter place w/ me show her things an such, u know things u would do w/ur kids.
