I've been working at the airport for a lil over 5 and half yrs, an it ok, pays the bills. but lately I have been having second thoughts if I want to stay there anymore.
Sure I would love to do the job I really want to do, and that's being a camera operator for a tv station or what ever, then owning my own production studio, someday it will happen. Im always thinking of videos how they should be, how they can be an such.
But there something else i wouldn't mind trying, cuz its something else i like doing, an that's driving. what is it u ask, its driving a big truck. Cuz i like to drive when i can. Theirs just something about driving to someplace new an seeing something new. (blah blah, yeah i know im rambling on an on)
Driving a truck has been on my mind for sometime now, an other then being a lil scared about doing it, an confidence level a lil low at times, I have pushed the thought waaaaaaaaaaay back in my mind. But lately I have been thinking about it more an more, the more I think about it the more I want to see if i can do it.
Theirs only one thing now that stoping me, an that's Adrianna (my daughter) she's still a baby and I don't get to see her as much as I like (long story, if u know me i willnt bore u w/it again, cuz im sure u tired of hearing it) but after what has felt like forever finally I can say theres movement on getting custody an visitation going, still going to take sometime, but the ball is rolling.
Anyway, the big reason why i really want to look into being a truck driver, cuz theirs money to be had there Big Money, an just knowing that I can really do something that means something. also for a future for Adrianna.
It has taken me a some time to realize that I need to think of someone else more, and not just my self, what I mean is and its pretty self explanatory. I have to think like a parent an think of child 1st. Need to secure her future an show that her old man is not just some smuck.
I not getting any younger and not having benefits or what ever i didn't put to much stock in to it, I was there to just make the money an work. You see most jobs I have had in my time there was no bennys, or what so ever and were dead end jobs its just how it is, that I have ended up w/them, or have worked at jobs like that.
Long story short, I have been living on my own for, 5yrs now (moved out late, was in my 30s when i did. so sue me.) tried once be4 to live on own, but was young dumb an stupid w/things i did, etc etc. And had to move back home, everyone should know what i mean about that, when u 1st more out.
But now im in the process of owning my own home (ok its a moblehome-trailer) but its a home, that ill own in about 2yrs, a place i can call My Home.
Anyways, that's life. Learning an realizing things ,an growing as time goes on.
