all i want is for one girl to look at me straight in the eyes and tell me that i am theres. none of this over the phone or email shit eye to eye and in person and then give me a huge kiss. thats is all i want. to have a girl that wants me for who i am not for what i can do sexually or money wise. i want them cause they love me and all my little flaws is this to hard to ask for. sometimes i wonder about it. everytime i think somethin good is goin to happen wham it slaps me. then im back to square one. again. used abused and alone all i want is to feel like im worth the good bad cute and ugly times. pretty much i want the long haul serious relationship. maybe marriage one day.