all i want is for one girl to look at me straight in the eyes and tell me that i am theres. none of this over the phone or email shit eye to eye and in person and then give me a huge kiss. thats is all i want. to have a girl that wants me for who i am not for what i can do sexually or money wise. i want them cause they love me and all my little flaws is this to hard to ask for. sometimes i wonder about it. everytime i think somethin good is goin to happen wham it slaps me. then im back to square one. again. used abused and alone all i want is to feel like im worth the good bad cute and ugly times. pretty much i want the long haul serious relationship. maybe marriage one day.
sometimes i wonder if bein sweet is a curse. im sweet to alot of girls and its like its not good enough. they lead me on and then plow. im hurt. its just messed up that girls can be so messed up to do that kinda stuff. im a caring loving type of guy. im wanting to find a girl that wants to be with me for the long run. marriage the whole deal. is that a bad horriable thing?