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The day is quickly approaching and I will be packing this weekend for my move to Washington state...I am not sure what is in store for me but I want you all to know that I appreciate your friendship. Some of you have my number and Yahoo...some do not. I have Net-10 for my phone and until things get settled it will stay that way....as for the internet I am not sure so emails and being on Fubar might not be as often as I would like.
I will keep my fubar profile so you can like and rate me...as for comments I might change it to where I don't have to approve them.
For those of you who are true friends...I will keep you updated as often as I can. You all are amazing, wonderful, and brighten my day when I feel down. Thank you for being here for me and when things get better I will be back....so enjoy my company while I am here lol
and dont' forget to hit that damn like button and rate me.
BIG HUGS......this is not goodbye....but a see you soon!
I often wonder who my real friends are....sometimes it is hard to figure out. I know of a few but unsure of the rest. I do not need fake friends at this poin in time...I value the ones I have. No matter where life may take me...I need to know who are the ones that I can still talk too. If I was to delete my profile...would you still be here for me or would you just fade away like so many other's. Who are you and are you still someone I can count on...I know that no matter what happens I will be there for you in any way possible.
True friends or not! I wrote on my profile that the ones in my family I trust, admire and adore....I would go to the ends of the earth if needed. I would be the one to dig the hole if they needed it js.
For my birthday, I took my kids back home....I never felt so happy to be back to a place I have forgotten. I was home back on the Rez. Never have I felt safe and comfortable. I was with family....people who know me and understand. Nothing that I know of could have made me feel like I was back home....back where I belong. I didn't want to leave....I wanted to stay...things aren't in place just yet.
I will be moving back home....close to family....close to the Rez. Yeah I will struggle to adjust but I know I will be okay. I might be gone from here and not sure for how long....but know that I will miss you all...all my friends.
Time for me to go home and be with the people!
Okay so I check the app again and here is what it says today: On this day of your life, Elizabeth, we believe God wants you to know ... that when you focus on problems, you will have more problems. When you focus on possibilities, you will have more opportunities.
I guess there is nothing to lose in doing so right! I mean lately it has been doubts and uncertainties....It isn't easy just letting go and hope that things happen for the best, especially when you want someone or something with all your heart. Positive thoughts give way to positive things....negative thoughts give way to negative things.
On this day of your life, Elizabeth, we believe God wants you to know ... that God has an important purpose for you, and made everything possible for you to succeed.
That's not to say it's an easy purpose, or a convenient one. It might very well seem hard or even impossible, but it only looks that way. The truth is that one day you will look back and see how all the pieces fit together. And how your life has been a complete and utter success.
Que Sera Sera
Whatever will be will be
The future's not our's, to see
Que Sera Sera
What will be, will be
Thank you, Doris Day!
What you see is what you get....I have been hurt...cheated on....lied too...beaten, battered and broken. I continue to fight for what I think is right. I love with every part of my being. I expect honesty. I will not judge you for what you have done in the past because it is the past...you are who you are and you are stronger. I will never lie....I don't know how to lie. I get hurt and yet some how I am still standing. I have lost friends and loved ones. Change is inevitable....everything changes. I am who I am....if you can't handle that then don't start.
Okay so every now and then I hit this application called "God wants you to know".....today mine said.. One this day of my live..."God wanted me to know that when I am unsure how to proceed, stop. Be still and enter into the silence. Allow your mind to cease its restless thinking. Wait. Let the answer come in its time."
Maybe I should have read it sooner. Everything happens for a reason and I guess things change for a reason too. I want so much to be happy and successful that I often forget those in my life that make me happy and I am successful even though I don't have a lot of things that would show it. I do however have wonderful friends, my kids, my health, and hopefully the one man that makes me smile and forget the stupid stuff that happens around me.
My heart feels broken.....like its been torn in two.....I don't know what to do.....I can't seem to get close to you....I know you have so much on your mind......in time ....patience is the key.......I just hope its not to late.......for you and me.......I will walk in the shadows.......waiting for you to see me.....some days are tougher than others......I just want you near......only time will tell......if all this is for real.....I don't want this....to be a dream.....yet I know you aren't looking....for all that I can give.....I don't want to hold back....these feelings inside.....so I will walk.....alone.....until the time.....when you arrive!
Some days I don't know what to do......so I move. Some days I don't know where to go...........so I go. Some days I don't know what to say.................so I say I love you. I guess that is when I hurt the most. I can move and go anywhere but saying those words tend to hurt more than I like. We are far apart and nothing is for certain....we walk and go to places and hope and pray they lead us to each other. If I hurt you please say so......Not knowing is what kills me the most.
