Ok once again a padre at work has sparked off another blog, well this time I was in a sort of disscussion based forum.. a few of us there. The padre produced a sheet of paper for us all.
Basically this sheet was so you can split your life up into segmants and answer questions according to those segements. So I split it 0-14, 16-18, 18-20 and 21 to present. The questions were along the line of who do you resepct at this point of your life, who do you listen to , whats happening in the world that innfluences you and the question I am wanting to talk about now " what is your belief of god, and what else do you believe in"
The reson why this stuck out so much is because I have never believed in God, but it took writing it down to see that from 0-14 I never believed in God...but why ?? My family are not religious so to speak but they do beleive in God...I even used to go to Sunday school when I was younger. Noboday that I recall has ever said God doesn't exist I just never believed. So that to me is a massive question about my life. Why don't I believe???? Answers on a postcard
The next thing that I noticed was in my 16-18 slot I came up with a theory ( i'm sure not original) that God may actually exist but not in the way that people believe as an omnipitant omnipresent being. I am quite interested when people say they have found God...people such as myself that have no belief in an almghty but then suddenly usually due to some traumatic event they know for certain that a God exists. An example of this would be a man that is suck on the side of a mountain he is injured hungry cold and wet. He knows he is about to die and as a last hope he speaks to god and asks him for help, at that point he gains an inner strength that allows him to move down the mountain.
Why does that inner strength have to be God helping him, why can it not be just that the man found a new resolve a new inject of hope just from being himself...his inner spirit.. That which helps us makes choices along the way, pushes us on when we are tired the human spirit is ofen talked about in religious circles..... but why is it why does it have to be down to god that we have our own little god inside us... some speak louder than others.
Humans like to put labels on things, especially things they can't see or understand..which is what breeds the inherrent fear of the dark for many people, they just can't see whats there. So if you have this moment of inspiration a second of dazzling ingenuity don't pin a label on it and call it god...have some pride that it was from within yourself..and as soon as you realise that it will be easier to call on again when times are bad.
I promise my next blog will be on a lighter subject :D
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