As suicide thoughts/
slowly creep in/
i grab hold of my liberation/
My only way out/
The only object that keeps me sane/
The only thing i can control/
Not evern my thoughts are my own/
To know that i cant control them/
Only scares me even more/
I dont know what they mean/
I sit and try to figure them out/
Until i want to scream!/
Until i want to run away to a psychiatric ward!/
Until i stand there and yell out to my Lord!/
To my savior/
The only one who understands/
And tells me this isnt what it seems/
It is only a dream//