3460073's blog: "poems"

 Waiting

I think of you,
my heart races.
Images flash though my mind,
fast forward
into a blur, mixing
memory
and unrealized fantasy.

There is a promised meeting,
I hold my breath.
Dare I pinch myself
lest I awake
from what you set in motion –
this dream
in which I hold you.

I have survived disappointments,
heart and commitment broken,
have lived with insecurity.
So much like a fickle cat
you give
only on your uncertain terms,
but yet I wait.

Too Much

You ask me to be your friend,
but my love exceeds friendship.
You want me to be just a friend
and I must, then,
cherish mere minutes
between days you spend
with your lover.

You value me as your friend,
but your time and energy
do not belong to me
and I feel of little worth.
You touch me as a friend,
the touch impersonal,
there are no kisses I can claim,
your passion is not mine.

I am but a friend,
and that does not hurt you.
You hurry off to see your lover
so easy to leave me,
and my heart bleeds.
You do not know my pain,
for I love you much too much
to be but your friend