1409800's blog: "My Thoughts"

So I  thought I might as well blog for a bit while I'm awake.

I'm sitting here @ 6:32am with like a gazillion thoughts running around in my head.

Like where am I and who am I.

My Fuworld seems to have gone abit awry and I don't know what to do right now.

I'm sitting here thinking why do I feel like I'm constantly alone no matter how many people I have around Me.

Why do I feel like I'm the worlds worst Girlfriend. 

I'm trying to keep the ones I hold dear happy and everything. But I can't seem to do anything right.

This is the weirdest feeling ever and I don't know what to do.

It's just something I have to work on I guess. Paranoia sucks and I hate it. The not knowing and the being kept in the dark about stuff I need to know.

I love Steve, Kathryn and Kris.

I don't wanna ever lose them or feel like I'm pushing them away.

I'm having mad trust issues right now. I feel like I can't tell anyone anything cuz it will nearly always be repeated.

I'm epic worried that they will all find someone better than Me and that scares Me beyond belief.

I'm soooooo emotionally wiped out and I just want to rest and re coup after I was sick.

There are soooo many good people on Fubar and most of em reside in Zombie Massacre.

Without them I would have gone stir crazy.

Watch this space for more Impy thinkinz