"Uncertain Destiny"
by Kiera Rose Lathan [Do Not Use/Steal/Take Without Permission!]
I feel lost,
Amongst a sea of bodies,
Floating through the cosmos,
As if not a care or worry hinted.
I don’t know what’s wrong,
And I don’t know what’s right,
And I don’t know anything.
I think I’m numb again.
Finally, I let my guard down,
And I’m plummeting down the abyss,
Of uncertain destiny and what else..
Clinging to whatever life I have,
Praying that tomorrow will be a better day.
I shouldn’t have said anything.
Just laid there in the stark silence,
With a muted smile and closed eyes.
Then again, it wouldn’t of worked,
I wear my heart on my sleeve,
And you would’ve looked and knew.
My body betrays me.
I’m climbing back into my shell,
So afraid of what’s to come.
I know I’m cold right now,
But I don’t feel it.
All I can feel is my barely mended heart,
Ready to shatter into pieces again.
Maybe I’m too needy,
Or too selfish,
Or too obnoxious.
I’m not sure of my footing anymore.
As I laid awake,
Staring at my ceiling in the dark,
How I wished to hear your voice.
But, I just kept on staring,
Wishing for a resolve,
Anything now but this uncertainty.
Maybe I’ll stop,
And everything will be okay.
But I’m not so sure anymore.
I went from elated to deflated.
Admit defeat, wave your white flag,
Leave your men behind in the battlefield,
And haul ass so you can get out alive...
Just to find that the little wound in your chest,
Is Fatal....
That final blow to put you six below.
Maybe it’s the insomnia talking.
The stress?
The questions my heart has is many,
And it’s days are numbered.
The countdown has begun,
And when it’s zero hour and a verdict rendered...
We’ll finally see who falls...