Towboater's blog: "She loves me, she hates me"

I cherish ya all the way. id make it work, long distance or what ever it takes.i want u so bad, like i said, I can tast ya soul, but its be better cover in lye, cos all my life it seems to loose, but i lost that too, so what i do now?

Want me to fall in love  show u this or that, life u could have.... marry u an have a fucking life: my life is a bull shit misery  so lets get married an say fuck it, is that all u know? 

I'm too good to be true an ur to hot to be blue, an we, just make a day come true an it sucks ass, morning is coming late, dawn just past us by, mid day is present, dawn is coming near, hold you, close, id cherish you my dear,

I'm a poet, if u didnt know it, devil bought my way, hell awaits, heaven is you, trouble is time an tired of running, please hold me, im falling, sincere,...im just running blind!...

I'm on a suicide,  but sometime we seem to dis tray..wonder what hes really like...glistens,... nite falls, your in bed,, he creeps into your head.. falling in love, to scared.. why are we here, is he near?

door opens, u walk, smell of toast, eggs, well a host for once, but fuck, god damn, where is my boost.. WV, cant it be..

Dream, an dream, wake an turn, u toss, an fill the burn, the hell awaits...heaven on your shoulders, is this really true?, i just lay down

below  Don't be scared. just speaking my mind.. after all, want you  to be all mine...hold ur hand down the aisle, hold ur hand with glee, hold you very close an be very happily!!!

Why can't I fucking be loved!!!!