Mood: Lonely
Listening to: Radio
I've mangaged to go a whole day without talking to Dan/Dad. He's disrespectful and annoying and I can't keep wasting my breath on the man.He drinks way too often and I hate it when he's drunk and he's always trying to get me to drink. I just don't want to. I dont need to always be drunk or drinking. There's just no call for it right now.
My job interview is on the 29...I'm so excited. It means I could have a job, some money and a way to get out of here on a regular basis.I really hope this works out.
Although today was rather uneventful it was decent.
As for my last entry...I thought about it while stuck in the car with Derek for an hour. I shouldnt have to force myself to grow up. Things will just get get old on thier own I guess.Although I should, I havent been feeling like being myself because...I've always had low self esteem and never felt like I was good enough since countless abandons, ect ect...all that bullshit. Could anyone blame me? I just feel like I have to be different to "fit in".
