they asked me to come home
to start with a clean slate
to be the golden girl
the prodigal child
returned to the fold
returned to their lives
how is it possible
that i can live
away from them
from my roots
from it all
and i sighed
i took a breath
i took a moment
because it was so hard
to explain
that i am
never going backwards again
they asked me to forgive them
and to accept forgiveness
to be brought, to be bought
returned to my roots
returned to all they find holy
how is it possible
that i can exist
within another world
far from my roots
far from them all
and i signed
i took a breath
i took a moment
because i realized it wasn't hard at all
to explain to myself
that i am
not even close being who i used to be
not even close.