Im sitting here and I cant find the words to say right now except Im at a loss in my life. Im at a loss in which direction I need to go in or do I have the strength to take a step and continue to walk. Its true that God will never put more on you than you can stand...so why do I feel like the weight of the world is on me and Im heavy and cant hold my head up. I feel like I dont want to continue this fight called life. Instead of washing my babies lil faces Im making funeral arrangements to put them beside their grandfather. I know I am not the only woman who has lost a child and I wont be the last , but in my heart I feel like Im alone in this pain. I wont be able to hear them say their first words or take their first steps or fuss at them for breaking glass . where is the future? I have loss my hope and my faith and right now I need prayer . I need God to hold me close and never let go. To all my friends here on FUBAR I thank you for the love, I thank you for the tears you have cried and I want you to know that I know you are there for me and Rico...pray for us
Thanks
Angel