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Aprlwine's blog: "My Poetry"

created on 01/20/2008  |  http://fubar.com/my-poetry/b180170

My Heart Soul and Dreams

"My Heart Soul and Dreams" Death runs through my veins and seeps into every crack Poisonous injection slowly flows into my mind darkness invades my soul and torments my brain. Knowing that I am going to die and feeling the presence of the other side. Though I stand here before this evil with this blade in my hand I know it will take me over all in due time. Shadows lurking behind closed doors, spirits crying out to be set free. Sadistic images enter my mind cutting and slaughtering innocent lives. Death envelopes me slowly creeping up from behind. Only time holds back the demons from hell. Crawling and scratching up from the earth to find another soul to shred apart. Though the time is near I will feel no fear. I stand here before this evil being feeling it's power trying to consume me not realizing what it is doing. Sometimes I wonder, what is the point living but not loving....... Wanting to be with the person I love the most. I lower the steely knife down to my wrist wanting all the blood to flow. Knowing when I cut the life in me will go. I look to the heavens and pray above to give me the strength to go on. Feeling the same pain day after day knowing that demons possess my soul. All the creatures lurking about trying to get me down to hell. Wanting and needing he that holds my heart but there is only one way for us to reunite. This eerie voice keeps calling my name beckoning and calling for me to join him somewhere. Into the shadows I can see him there holding out his arms and drawing me near. The blade slowly grazes the veins that pulse with life wanting to be cut so I'll be with the night. Some say this is done by the sick others say it is to stop the pain. every night it enters my mind to stop all the pain I feel inside. Calling louder and louder to join this force drawing me in deeper and deeper until I can almost feel icy fingers embracing me. Some may say I am sick, others demented. To feel such pain is what my aching heart longs to be set free of. The time is drawing nearer as my eyes gaze down upon this small cut in which size it will grow. God almighty please come down and protect me from this evil for which I am bound. The redness seems darker as it drips to the floor cutting yet deeper into the bone. I know in a short time, it will all be over. This demon from hell will have possessed another. The light it seems is starting to dim. The blackness starts to crawl and seep in. The knife I drop to the floor,it has done it's job there is no need for more. All of my happy memories seem to flood through my mind crying for me to stay here on this earth from which I was born. My lover is calling for me to come nearer, wanting to go but scared of the night. Why wouldn't someone help with the pain? I've cried to the almightily to ease this heartache. Sometimes I think he listens other times not for the pain still lasts and cuts like this knife. Why did it all have to end this way? I wish it would all just go away. My eyes they grow heavy and my sight grows dim images of a place full of sin. Time seems so still and quiet all around while I lie here dying my thoughts turn to him. Is it really you that I see, or an image of another man fallen and demented. He keeps calling my name ever so gently as he holds out his strong arms to hold and embrace me. I know he loves me for he has told me so, wanting and needing to hold me close. I am not scared for we will be together. Our love will grow strong and never end. I can no longer feel my body staring up in empty sight. Wanting no one to mourn for what I have done. Only knowing how I feel inside. There seems to be a light up ahead, my lover there stands waiting for me. My soul has left my body and I am now dead going to another place where I have never been. My hand reaches out to his in the light knowing we are here to reunite. I cry out inside and try to turn back but he holds me close and says there's no turning back. I feel comfortable numb as he guides me away to a place I've never seen and long to be set free........ ~Deborah Lynn~

Seaside

"Seaside" As the wind blows fiercly and the waves crash against the seaside, a single light beckons in the distance. You walk down the pathway, the steep embankment leading to the cliff's edge. Your gown billowing around you, as you steady yourself to keep from slipping over the edge. You hear your name being called out. Could it be he from so long ago? Your one true love that went away, only to never return? The voice is so clear, as you hear the familiar song as it sings through the wind. Yes, it is he! He has come back to you. The love was so strong, the passion so intense, the nights on the beach, memories come flooding back. When he left, your heart it did ache always wondering what fate had taken him but knowing this magnificent, undaunting sea had claimed his life, tearing what would be forever from your grasp. Leaving you so suddenly, so many questions left unanswered. A fog rolls in from the sea, you hear your name again. This time it is behind you. You turn around to see him looking as he did the day he left. So handsome and powerful, taking your breath away. Could this be a dream or reality? Then his hand reaches out to yours, you gently place your hand in his. He pulls you close,you can feel his body pressed so close. The familiar scent of the sea upon him. His hand gently caresses your face as he tilts it up to his, your eyes lock as time seems to stand still. There is a calmness that surrounds you, his lips gently touch yours, as the feelings come rushing back. All the nights of lonliness fading away, seizing this moment that has been granted to you. You have wished for so many years for this night to happen. Your lover has returned for you to see once more. As your lips slowly part, the wind picks back up, he starts to step back, you don't want to let go! "Stay", you cry out as his hands slowly slip from yours. Then he says in a soft low tone, "I love you forever, and forever it shall be. We will be together when destiny sees fit. The angels will sing and the dark skies will part, bringing hope, guidance and protection to all of those who sail the night. Forever bound to this solemn vow, think of me and know it be true, that forever in my heart you will always be. When you are lonely and sad, just come to the sea, peer out at the ocean and remember me. A love so true, bound by two hearts, forever in love as it was from the start. Now I must go but I will not say goodbye. The night it calls for me to come back. Only this time you know, that I am still here, waiting and longing for the day when sweet surrender shall bring you my way. Until then, I will wait for you. Never be afraid of what lies ahead, but know in your heart, that this man that I am, will love you throughout eternity and sail the calm waters once again. Only the next time will be with you by my side, forever in love and one with the sea." A tear slides down your cheek as you know he must go you whisper "I love you", as he disappears into the night. You look to the heavens and pray once more, to protect him and guide him through the rough storms at sea. You turn to the waters and look once more, the light in the distance fading out with the tide. You know he is gone now and this you must accept, but in your heart, he has never left. You wipe the tears away and a smile dances on your lips. You know he is safe and peacefully at ease. You turn around and walk slowly away, knowing in time, that you will reunite once again. Only this time forever, to calmly ride the sea forever in love, as it was from the start. ~Deborah Lynn~

Sometimes At Night

Sometimes at night, do you ever sit and think about how your life has turned out? Possibly wishing things could have turned out differently or perhaps content with what you have and not needing more? Life is funny sometimes, not expecting the unexpected, yet thankful sometimes for what comes your way. In this thing we call life, we all go through countless days and nights having to decide what is right and what is wrong. Whether you make the right choices or possibly not, only you can decide which path you will take. It may be a long journey into the great unknown, but in time, you will see that you alone, have the ability to make your own dreams come true. No matter what the outcome may bring, you alone have chosen the road that will lead you. May your journey be filled with endless happiness and joy, the feeling of love and passion that everyone deserves. Sometimes at night, do you ever sit and think....... Copyright ©2007

Some of My Poetry

The Dove As the wind blows gently through the night, listen closely and you will hear such flight the wings of the dove as she soars so high in search of he who captured her heart. Over the mountains, oceans and beyond never losing hope of what lies beyond. Will she find what she is looking for or perhaps search unendingly into the wind as her graceful wings flutter with such beauty and grace. Her heart weeps as she soars on..... Oh what wonders she has seen from above. Brilliant colored skies, snow topped mountains green rolling hills, the deepest blue oceans.... Yet somewhere out there is her journeys end.... Until she reaches that magical, mystical place to find he who captured her heart she soars on striving to exist.... Only time and perserverance will lead her to her undying love.... Searching, seeking, wanting, needing.... Will he be there when she reaches her final destination or have flown into the heavens above.... Will her journey end in sadness or in sweet reward....... Time slowly goes by as she soars on dreaming and never giving up on what she seeks. Will she find it........ Only time will tell.......
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