OK SO HERE I AM.. STILL DEPRESSED AS I WROTE IN A BLOG A FEW DAYS AGO.. I LOST SOMEONE THAT WAS REALLY CLOSE TO ME..LIKE A GRANDMOTHER... SHE LOST HER BATTLE WITH CANCER.. SHE WAS 85... SHE LIVED A LONG FULL LIKE AND RAISED 64 FOSTER CHILDREN.. 2 OF THEM SHE ADOPTED.. SHE WAS A MOTHER TO ALL..
I WENT TO HER FUNERAL YESTERDAY.. WHICH COMPLETELY TORE ME APART AND WORE ME OUT.. BUT I WENT BACK TO MY MOTHERS SO I CAN SPEND TIME WITH MY NIECE AND NEPHEWS... WELL ME AND MY SISTER AND THE KIDS WENT TO MY BROTHERS HOUSE.. WE WERE JUST RELAX AND PLAYING WITH THE KIDS WHEN MY PHONE GOES OFF..
I GOT A TEXT MESSAGE FROM MY BEST FRIEND.. HER SISTER HAS COLITIS AND CHRONS DISEASE.. WELL SHE WENT IN FOR SURGERY THE OTHER DAY, ENDED UP HAVE HER GALLBLADDER, COLAN, APPENDIX, AND LEFT OVARY REMOVED.. WELL WHEN THEY WERE DOING THIS THEY FOUND A TUMOR.. CANCER WAS PRESENT, SO THEY RAN THE BLOOD WORK.. SHE HAS STAGE 3 CANCER.. ITS IN THE LIMPHNODES... SHE HAD TO GO BAD TO SURGERY YESTERDAY TO HAVE A TUBE PUT IN HER CHEST FOR CHEMO.. AND THEY CAN'T DO ANY CHEMO TILL SHES ABLE TO WALK FROM THE PRIOR SURGERY.. SO THE NEXT 3 MONTHS WILL TELL US IF SHES GONNA MAKE IT OR NOT..
ITS KILLING ME CAUSE I HAVE KNOW HER SINCE HER DIAPER DAYS.. I HAVE YET TO FULLY CRY BUT I FEEL A BREAK DOWN COMING ON SOON.. I JUST WANT YA ALL TO KNOW IF I FLIP OUT ON ANYONE OF YOU NOT TO TAKE IT PERSONAL... I AM ON THE EDGE AND JUST ABOUT ANYTHING SETS ME OFF...
I HOPE TO BE ABLE TO GET BACK TO NORMAL SOON BUT NOT SURE IF THAT IS GONNA HAPPEN... ITS JUST TO HARD TO HAVE LOST SOMEONE TO CANCER THAT I WAS CLOSE TOO.. HAVE TO AUNTS FIGHT CANCER AND SURVIVE.. AND HAVE SOMEONE I USED TO BABYSIT AND LOOK AT AS A SISTER TO HAVE IT SO SEVERELY.. ALL THIS IN LESS THEN 6 MONTHS.. I AM GONNA EXPLODE...
I HOPE U ALL UNDERSTAND IF I AM QUIET...
MUCH LOVE..
FREAK OF THE IRISH
MEGZ