StayCee MehRee's blog: "Me"

So it's 3:41 am CST and I can't go to sleep until I get this stuff off my chest. Have you ever loved someone so much you held back everything afraid you would hurt or scare that person away if you told them truly how you felt? I have and still do but I have to let go and tell him how I feel. When he reads this he will know it's about him so no names have to be mentioned.

When I met you a month and a half or so ago just something about you drew me in...you're mysterious, funny, sweet, handsome, caring, honest, and just so dang silly it's cute. I haven't felt this way about anyone not even my daughters father..

You can take the craziest of moments and turn them into some of the funniest, you respect me, you can make my tears go away in a split second, and all those things and so much more are what makes me want us to be so much more than just friends.

When I look at your pictures I lose my breath and get tingly inside..never had that happen with anyone else. I wake up thinking about you and go to bed thinking about you. All day long you're on my mind. You are just completely absolutely breathtaking to me.

I would do anything for you to keep you happy, and keep you smiling. When you hurt I hurt and when you're sad I am sad.

I think back to the day we first met on here and all we have been thru together..even a few arguements but even thru those we managed to make up and fix things.

I spent all night tonight crying about earlier because I was scared I had lost you for good. I couldn't handle that at all you mean way to much to me.

I want you in my life, not only as a best friend but as so much more. I hope someday that can be a reality or a possibility. I want you to be the one I tell good night to and sweet dreams to every night for the rest of our lives, the one I kiss on the lips when we go to bed at night and the one I wake up next to each morning. I know I know kinda deep but I have to get this off my chest now or I won't ever tell you these things.

I do my best thinking it seems when I am thinking about you and only you.

I know alot of things I do on this site you don't like and don't support and for you I can change if it means you will give me that one chance I want with you. All I ask is you have faith in me, let me prove to you that I mean all of what I am saying to you.

I spent the whole day and I mean the whole day yesterday thinking about you and how I felt about you. I never ever ever had these feelings like this for anyone at all..you make me melt. My only wish is that someday we get to act on these feelings.

I care about you more than you will ever know, words can't even put a meaning to how much love I have for you..yes I said love. I honestly do love you because you know what..you been there for me more than anyone on this stinkin site or even in real life.

When I was having a bad day you was there to cheer me up, when I cried hours upon hours over jerks that broke my heart you was there, when I needed someone to talk to you was there for me as well...no questions asked you stopped what you was doin and you made me smile. I would give almost anything to have that everyday of my life.

Not a single person on this site will ever take your place in my life I don't care how much money they spend or how much bling they give me. You will always hold a special place in my heart and a special place in my life....My question to you is are you willing to give me the chance to prove these things to you?? Are you willing to let me prove to you that I want this more than anything??

Will you give me that chance??

I will change for you because that's just how damn bad I want this..you name it and I will do it.

Well I need to get some rest now and dream about you. I hope we get to talk about this in the morning. Goodnight.