I Want To Give In Again
It's not the first life that I've wasted
Given over to the blood I've tasted
It's not the first time I've been broken
Payment for the lives I've stolen
Now I stand another chance
Another turn at this godless dance
Turn my back on timeless sin
But I want to give in again
With every memory my body quakes
The things I gave to clear the slate
It left me with this broken spirit
But did not remove what came before it
I still feel this aching need
To fill this emptiness in me
To know the taste of victory
And see the fallen at my feet
There is nothing quite like the seduction
Of the power wrought from sweet destruction
Of life lived for dominion and pleasure
For such a height there is no measure
There is no touch to quench this desire
No lover that burns quite like this fire
It seems so pointless if it is not taken
Saved only for the soul forsaken
The soul that battles with this strife
Was a god in some other life
And the heart that set its passions free
Was finally stripped away from me
Bowed to the whims of mortal men
Lived a life that felt their sins
A broken child of their power
To clear the past and know this hour
Now quietly I step into the stream
I try to join this human dream
Give up my perch from high above
Learn why it is I can not love
So this is what it's like without
To find in yourself a sense of doubt
Yet I still can not forget
Not even the cruelest could force regret
I must somehow learn to start
For the soul is in hell without the heart
So how does one that knows the taste of sin
Stop wanting to give in again
