I have been sitting here the last view days thinking alot of things over. My life, My place in this life, and what it is I really want from my life. Many times, over the yrs I have thought I wasn't good enough for people. I have bashed myself over the head a thousand times asking what it is about me people just didn't like and how to change it. I have self-esteem issues, who doesn't, I'm no Cindy Crawford, or any next top model. I'm a BBW. With severe body issues. I've lost over 150 lbs and still look in the mirror and see the person I was. The thing is I like who I am. I'm a great mother, a great friend, and the most passionate person about things. I am a Bitch. I wasn't always one, but life and situations have created me to be one. So, I guess to all those that want me to be something different or someone different. Tough Shit! You get what you get with me and you can either take it or leave. I'm tired of beating myself up because someone want this to change or that. I may have my issues, but you know what so does 1.5 million people. I'm dealing with mine. Get over it.